A space where I, as an Empath, in these incredible times, describe my senses of Earth and Human Energies happening both in my inner world and in the outer, where I resolutely claim my Feminine Mind, Heart and Spirit and Wisdom. This blog is not for the feint of heart nor for closed minds, it is open to the infinite realities of this universe. I hope you join me and share with those who have eyes to see and ears to hear.

Sunday, July 29, 2018

Energetics AND Something is Different Lately, Very Very Different - I moved out of the Matrix

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared. Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods http://serenaladyofthewoods.blogspot.com/

First I want to say that I will be posting differently from now on. I tend to make long ones, when I really want to keep them short. So I am going to try to post short energetics again. Thanks to those who read my little empathic blog. This first section is on Empathic Energetics as I sense/live them and then more on my personal journey for those interested. And I would love your feedback. <3


Empathic Energetics: 

The "something", the "Earth changes" heart/soul based humans have been waiting for is upon us. I cannot be the only one experiencing this. I am sure of it. The Universe I/we are in now is far friendlier now, and supportive of my endeavors as grand or domestic as they may be, and things are actually FLOWING now. There is ease. There is what one can only refer to as something "right".

Anyone who doesn't believe huge dimensional changes are happening must look deeper, make radical moves, or look more closely, or do something out of character, or a list of many other things, but IT is happening and can be made to happen. One must not only negate the old world, but also create the new you want to live in. That creating part is only for you to do and no one else.

I am feeling the world now, that I have had in my heart for ages. I committed to living only how I want to live (as much as possible in 3-D).
That there is now a safe space also for others to do so. While it was locked down before, the prison net has broken, and new realities can be made. Must be made otherwise, the old still lives on.

I have deliberately and intentionally renounced the crazy patriarchal wasteland that is the 3-D matrix filled with soulless beings, to spend all the rest of my own time, energies and imagination creating a world of my own. I needed to do this while I lived. It can be done. There is something critical about this part.....a deliberate all consuming creating of ones own world out of the real energies of love. This is not for my own life I must stress, but that some blueprint of potentiality is forged into reality when one does this with ones entire being, that makes it possible for others. The vanguard, so to speak?

This can happen for others who do the same. A complete break has to be made, with ones entire being. Nothing less. Only engage as much as what keeps one safe from all bureaucratic complications, otherwise, create your own world.

I am also deliberately abstaining from reading, or doing anything involving the "old world", for me it is gone.
Empathically......I feel the New Worlds upon us not just because I sense it, but because I am living it. At first I thought it was just the result of a huge sense of relief. No, its far more than that.
It was rather sudden too. Interesting that one quote that has always sung to me was "in the twinkling of an eye".......yes, it can be like that.
But it is imperative that those New Worlds are created by your own hearts and imaginations.
May I suggest you all who want your own world begin to create it with everything you have in you. Even if you think you don't have the energy, I certainly didn't, but it can be done. Somehow.
Find others who you resonate with and can live in peace with and partner up. Find ways.

I believe in feeling into the new "realities" as such, because there are many now, that they need to be filled in, or are a blank canvas so to speak, that need the artistry of the imaginal realms of those who are creators with heart and soul. This requires action and absolute intention. Go forthe and create.
 ~ end empathic energetics.


This part below is more on my own personal journey and evidence of the New Realities:

I've been wanting to write this for weeks. I just didn't know if it would last.

There is something very very different in my life.
One could say, I got out of a toxic place and energetics, and I would say emphatically, yes.
But its much more than that.

One could say country life is different, and that space of lots of green, trees and grass, real Earth beneath ones feet, with fewer people would create more peace and I would say yes again. Its that too.

One could say alot, but what I'm saying is that it is all of that and more > More what I call "natural" forces of life, which are magical in the always positive sense. What I know to be my Truth.

There are a crazy number of synchronicities happening, and synchronicities are wonderful events happening in the physical world that tell you the Universe and You and now (re)-United.
These synchs or serendipities which is a more fun word, are happening almost every day. I cannot even count how many dozens have happened since I made the move out of TN and back into Florida Country. It literally began when John arrived and helped so much (out of character :-) me pack so we could drive out the next day. But the synchs are happening for both of us independently. For example, he needed that job in Gainesville, and was immediately hired, interviewed only by phone and got the job on the spot. Unlike previous protocols. And Gainesville is where I had said I wished we could move to years prior when I helped someone move here. Synch.
More mundane examples are, I want a specific rare plant and he finds it in a store the next day.
It happened again the other day, when we went out shopping on his day off, and I wanted to check the garden center store to see anything new....(I'm a huge plant/nature person) and my favorite plant is Maidenhair Fern......delicate, lacy, whimsical plants that love water and shade and whose spiritual meaning I just learned is Beauty and Love. So there.

So we arrived at the store and there, in a box were a bunch of maidenhair ferns, just arrived, not even priced yet.
The same happened with our trees. He and I both wanted Italian Cypress trees and had always seen them in stores but they were very small, dried up and too expensive on top of that. Once here, we found tall ones, very green, healthy, maybe 13 feet tall, taller than our house, and the price was right, and we had them delivered. The same with the 3-ball topiaries. The same with a shallow bowl I spent 2 hours searching for online 2 nights ago, and when we went to H.D. the other day, there they were in terracotta, not plastic, the right size, color and the price was almost thrift store priced compared to what I'd seen online that I liked. They were not there just days ago. This keeps happening with all kinds of little mundane things. Nice!

2 days ago I had a lovely emotion filled dream of almost being able to have a cat again. I love to have the cat choose me, for those who understand that, but since 2010 none have come though I have tried out a few. This dream was magical in the sense that there was a woman who had 2 kittens, black, both male and they were looking for a home. I was interested but wanting to see if the cats wanted me too. There was a man there who also wanted the kittens. The woman watched and listened to us both. The man was talking more, I was feeling more.....for the cats. The cats remained neutral....though aware that both the man and I could potentially be their new parents. The man seemed to have won out, he was more vocal, aggressive in his desires and commenting on their traits, while I remained receptive. I had fallen in love with them, and finally I fell to my knees in front of the woman, with my expression being one hopeless in love and nothing else to say. The woman however made the decision. She awarded me the cats, and I was shocked because the man clearly claimed them, but she said, "this was not about favoritism, but about love". So she awarded them to me. I felt so mushy grateful.
The next day, when we checked the garden store for new arrivals of plants, I found my maidenhair ferns in a box, yet unpacked as mentioned,! And with this in hand a lovely young calico cat meandered right to my feet and I remembered my dream of the previous night. I was so happy to be petting the furry thing who was loving the affection. The woman who worked there said there were two male kittens there in the store looking for a home. And John said I'd better hurry since a man there was also interested in the cats. It was my dream, in a sense. He had already claimed them. (deja vu) But he could have them. I wanted female cats, they are not territorial and don't spray and stink. The woman told me she had younger females at her home and they too were looking for a home. I may have a lovely furry love in my home any day now. She just called John :D.
It keeps happening. Almost every day.

I can fix something that frustrates john, and what I cannot fix, he can. Its crazy. Odd that "flow" seems ''crazy" now lolol.
Its "right" to the point that this is what life should be, never was, and now is shocking and takes getting used to. Yet feels very much what life should be.

A little backtrack. Two days after leaving TN my red and pained eyes of the previous year were no longer red. John also said the swelling of my eyes went down to almost normal. I had to look in the mirror and he was right. The eye problem started when I got to TN. I thought it was the dry air. I kept trying to find 3-D explanations for this new problem. I went to the eye doctor and he found nothing.
The eyes are the windows of the soul. My soul was sick in TN. Something was making my soul sick. Something vile and evil. And I am not a wimp. I grew up in badlands of drugs, violence and poverty and became not only a warrior of my Self but a guardian of others unable to protect themselves. But that is another book.
Since leaving TN my hair stopped falling out and is shiny again. I have less pains. And there is more but I want to move on.

These changes in paradigm is not just country life. This is not just being away from toxic beings from whatever dimension they hail from. Its not just having my own space.

THIS is a totally different reality. I look out of my windows and see an Italian Mediterranean garden in its beginning stages. How can this be already? With only a few additions to this land of grass and trees?
This is a totally different reality. It literally feels like I've left that 3-D matrix system and am finally in a world of my own making. I can fall back into old "feeling patterns" but check myself right out of them again, taking note of the reality I am currently in and moving forward. There is a HUGE  difference. Its almost like it keeps telling me, "don't think back..... don't feel back...... don't fall back....be present in this fresh new space. Come on, and believe........It is clean and waiting for artistry."

The feeling is also that I am finally energetically "alone".....with my own thoughts, feelings and energies. Before, in all my previous life apparently, I've been bombarded, albeit unknowingly, with energies from all kinds of things, from other people, from other non-people, from unseens, from EMF's, from solar/lunar energies, Earth energies, etc......and it has been impossible to separate myself from all of that.
It seems now I can. I can feel my Self. I can feel only me when I check in and see what is going on. I can see now when my own thoughts are generating feelings and I can correct or change them. I can see when "weather" is not real weather but manipulated which is toxic also.
I now feel like I can be alone and this feels so good, because being with my Self is so relieving and feels so clear and clean. I can breathe, I can sigh.....with space. I can empty my thoughts when I want. I can be quiet when I want.

This is hugely different. This is not merely a move to another Earthy location, this is a move to another dimension, another reality, one that is my own, though still here in 3-D.

They said this could happen. I heard it literally hundreds of times. I spoke of it myself. I determined it my Self.......and now I am living it.

It seems that the drive from TN, with our things en route to a new home, and john and I driving in a car on the road to a new life, new location, heaven-bent on our old routines of simple joys, was the path, the orbit that took us to a different reality. He drove, Impeccably I might add, because I was so worn out, falling asleep while awake etc and not wanting to poke Murphy that beast of wrongs,.....and we drove in silence for almost 2 days.


I said in my previous post that some things are unbelievably perfect about this house, this location and this life, even though we literally picked a house out of 2 internet pictures, had the pods with our possessions sent to this location, and were driving to this as a new home before we even owned this house. Crazy, I know. But if you're not just a bit crazy you'll never be able to outpace the insanity of patriarchal systems. You need just a bit of crazy to be able to maneuver around them, to be malleable and spontaneous, and say F*&k it and move forward in ruthless ways. We did that. We had no time to think. We had to move forward. I had a only single day instead of the planned 4, to pack a container thanks to the saboteur repeatedly refusing my POD being delivered days before I had to leave, but I maneuvered and made it work because I had to be a bit crazy. And though the saboteur tried to assert its own false authority over my circumstances (the supervisor of the POD called me to find out why it was cancelled, NO I didn't cancel it! He said the owner of the house cancelled it, I had to beg him to bring it anyway, thank god my neighbors allowed it on their property and that is how I was able to have it).......So even with all this and more happening, we still managed to get out on the day we needed, to get on the long road to another dimension and another alternate reality. WE did.

I am still recovering from being so "sick" on so many levels as I was in TN.
The creation of this New Reality is more mine than his, since he does not create. He just enjoys what I create, and I have huge huge unlimited imaginal realms of knowledge and experience from my Soul where I have lived in absolute Freedom as a Creator. I am still limited here in this dimension by physicality of material things and funds, but not in my imagination and intentions. And I am still, after all these years focused on what I want to create, the beauty, the harmony, the simplicity, the Peace, the memories of wondrous magic.......and finally it seems my Universe has formed itself around my steadfast intentions and is forming itself into manifestation.


We left chaos. We left crazy. We left sabotage.
It has been consistent.

So why am I telling you this? Because I don't believe it is only me experiencing things like this, huge changes like this, not just cute stuff, but literally an alternate reality that is friendly and femininely nurturing towards our needs both physical and emotional. Its almost like we speak them in voice and they show up in physicality. That is more than just positive, that is a totally different than Earthly paradigm.

Now, to move back some years.....

I have been working on dismantling. And I mean DISMANTLING.......the perilous realities created here by psychopaths. I cannot explain how I have done this, how often, how intensely, or that every breath from my body was all about this for my entire life.....that the trillions of cells in my body lived for this and only this......as far as the first part. And once I saw the dismantling taking place, phase two was initiated by my own initiative, and no other, to create the new worlds for those beauties within the "human" species with both heart and soul. I did that too. And only in 2016/2017, did I hear from others, that what I was creating was being seen and reported by many others, and I stopped. I stopped because it was already coming in. We, the hearts and souls of Humanity are going Home.





Tuesday, July 10, 2018

My New Life July 2018



Helllllloooooooo People !

Its been a while, a lot of "life" happening too often, too fast and all has been too much in general, but I am here posting because some of my friends want to know what is happening, where I am living, how, pics of the new place and what I'm doing. Here now, I will tell as much as I can.....so get ready, get a large coffee or tea because I think this will be a long one and with lots of pics. I always like to be succinct but once I get to talking and no one is stopping me, I tend to get into more details, but some have asked for details......so here goes.
In fact I think I will make my self a cup of tea too....be right back....

Tea is on.....and while I wait a bit, I will say a very Happy Helllooooo to all of my friends who have asked about me and what is happening. And helloooo to all who bother to read my quirky little "Energetics" blog of an empath, I welcome and thank you for being here and even remotely interested.

I will start with a caveat that I can't tell all of my experiences as I don't want to start a war with something that would make a war out of total megalomaniac afflictions, so I use prudence, the point being to keep as much peace in my world. But I will say that nothing can be exaggerated enough to describe this....... ummm......ahem....."learning curve" shall we say? You cannot possibly know of what I speak unless you lived it. Nothing else compares.

Back with tea and a huge sigh.....how to begin......
well I am here in a new home, my new home I can say as I co-own this place with John.....John ! people! how can I even begin to express how a lethargic sloth of 15 years, stepped up and out once I left his house? Made miracles happen a year later? He didn't even know he had it in him.
When we parted I thought I'd never see him again and he thought the same. It was an amicable parting since I had to leave due to the planes noise driving me insane all day every day.
He thought he'd just go into his usual ways, being alone and be fine. I thought I'd go into a new venture with others to do house buying/flipping and have a creative life and career. Both of us were more than totally, even dimensionally off the mark. Goes to show what you focus on does not materialize, but that other things your mind and brain could NEVER conjure can come to slap you upside the head so hard, your entire sense of what is real and what is not is fully on the table with equal measure.
Turns out John was human after all and the other I thought was, wasn't. We both had our worlds flipped upside down for different reasons, and then both realizing we work better together.....at least as domestic mates we do. There is so much to tell about this story that it has become a book, a literal book. My friends throughout the years have always told me I need to write a book, albeit about different things, so what to write? when I hate writing??.....well, this last experience has made me want to write. I actually want to write the book about all this and I even have a title already.

I have taken long before writing this post because I didn't want to speak too soon.....you know, murphy and all his gang......so I kept quiet. But at this point, should I die now, I could now say I finally know what it feels like when things go right....when things work out, when they go smoothly, as they should without hitches, glitches, interference, etc etc.
I know what it feels like now to take a safe deep breath, never had before, ever. I know what it feels like to own something and have a blank canvas to play with, to get creative with and to have at least one person who enjoys my creativity as his own quality of life. I know what it feels like now, to have quiet, and peace, and I mean quiet that is all the time like I like it, not sporadic or broken up with sounds of people or their machines, but all day every day quiet, the predictable kind.... like......wow......its still quiet. I check about a dozen times every day, looking out the windows front and back to see if it is real, if I am still here in the middle of 5 acres of green grass surrounded by dozens and dozens of fully mature trees, and woods and the deer who live in them, and yes, I am still in the middle of this healing green and it is still quiet, after 2 months. I've never experienced such a thing. Quiet and silence and peace were literally moments in my previous 59 years, and they were too precious and too few. Now, the quiet is here all the time, the main presence and foundation of this place, along with the green beautiful.

The House:
Once John said there was a store opening in Gainesville, I told him to take it, he began the process and he pounded on that like a bull. This fragile, negligent, lethargic, workhorse, turned into the Taurus bull of his nature and got things done. What!?
I was not able to do anything. He had alot to do on his own and I did not for one second believe he would do it all, I mean this is the guy who breaks down in frustration with red lights in traffic, who will put off mowing a small lawn until he gets a city notification. In the 15 years of living with him, it took countless directives to get him to mow his tiny lawn.
What he had to do now was titan-ish for even the most efficient person. He had to secure his job first, get his truck in driving condition which was delayed by 2 weeks!, put his own house on the market for sale, pack and store his things somehow, search and find a house in Gainesville, come to Tennessee to help me finish packing my things and store them, both of us drive to Gainesville in time to close on some house neither of us had time to search for, move us in, then start his new job.....ALL IN 3 WEEKS TIME. Hellooooo?? can anyone conceive of that amount of work? especially for someone like John!!!!!!!!! To top this all off, he had to accomplish all of this while still working full time. I went into despondency because I knew he would never get it done and my chances of getting out of TN and into my own safe and clean space was nil.
But the Taurus Bull and something else came to life. (I get chills). John himself said something took over him and he did everything he could methodically and did not stop. He encountered delay after delay, no help from anyone, his car in the shop for 2 weeks, and endless sabotage every step and yet he did what even would shame heroes to accomplish. Something very intense and strong took him through this, knew the importance of this for saving my life and his own......and it was all done. I am still IN AWE.

What happened was, once he said he would apply for the Gainesville position, and once he said he got it, then the next thing is finding a place to live right? Do we stay in a hotel first so we have time to search? Does he do this alone and then find one and then come get me in TN? If so then it gets expensive for hotel and he knows no one else he could bunk with for that time. How to do this?? I got online to get an idea of houses. I didn't know what to do, how one goes about such things as finding a house. I've always rented or lived with someone else....how do people find houses? I've heard nightmare stories about how long it takes and how many houses one sees to find the right one, location wise, size wise, price wise, etc etc......one does not simply choose a house from a picture and land there.
I got online feeling lame, looking at locations near his job knowing it had to be close because he hates the commute and I wanted him to be free of that one thing that torments him, was the drive to work and back.....so I looked and saw pictures. I found something that was cheaper than what he had his house on the market for and sent him the link to see. He said it was a nice size but was not interested. I looked further and found nothing that had requirements that I needed which were more than his. I needed to be away from traffic and noise, from men and machines. I wanted space to plant gardens and trees. He couldn't care less he's never home. The house had to have at least 3 bedrooms, one for each of us and a quest room, and had to be move in condition. No fixer uppers like his last. He wanted a 2nd bathroom and a window over the kitchen sink. The location, price, etc. We each had a wish list we didn't even tell each other about, I'll get to that later. ( I realize I didn't get into this, but if any are interested I will post another one about this fun bit). But the basics were proximity to job, away from street and traffic and people, space inside and 3 bedrooms.

I got online again, searching neighborhoods driving time to his job etc, and found a house that wasn't there before, similar to the first but this one was cheaper and had blue shudders on the windows and I sent it to John. He wasn't impressed. I gave him the name and number of the broker and asked him to at least speak with her and possibly line up other homes to see, make a connection there and start the process, please! They do that don't they? I listed the pros of the house to try to find out why he was resistant, to no avail. He wasn't impressed at all with that house. Upon deeper questioning which always pushes his annoyed button he had a "thing" against modular homes. I said what's the problem when most homes out here are modular? We both need to make an immediate departure, we don't have time. This prolonged things. Whenever we spoke which was about once a week, ( I know, but he's not one to have conversation, though he tolerates mine more now).....I tried to find out what he wanted from a home and what he was doing to find one? Nothing. He looked online once, on his terrible laptop which basically was 10 years old and froze every 30 seconds, and found one house with 2 pictures total, both of the outside and the house was not only right next to houses on all sides, but the street was 10 feet away. NOT. So he didn't know how to go about this either.

What he finally decided, without telling me was to do a quick sale on his house, and finally called that broker in Gainesville to at least get ideas, and possibly see that one house with the blue shudders and take it from there. I was so helpless! I couldn't do what I usually do to help him, he was overwhelmed with so much to do and had never organized himself before. I went into despair.
We had 2 weeks now.
What I didn't know was that he had called that broker and put a deposit on that house. Without seeing it, he just wanted a location to land and he went and did it. I was floored? flabbergasted? shocked? appalled? impressed? On one hand I didn't care where we landed as long as I was out of that house I was in and in another of my own, and on the other I didn't want to experience any more things going wrong, or not working or anything that needed fixing etc. I was far too sick and weak and traumatized from my past year and years before that, and my body systems were failing. I needed a safe haven. He, needed to just make sure he got to work on s specific day otherwise they'd fire him if he failed to show up. Well how does he do all of this while still working full time ??!?!?!?!? I found out the name of his supervisor at work and explained that he cannot be working right now, he has a transfer to work on, a house to sell, and things to pack, a house to buy and he has to fly to TN to pack and move another household, then get to Gainesville, close on a house we havn't got yet......and HE CANNOT BE WORKING RIGHT NOW, WHY ISN'T HIS APPLICATION FOR VACATION NOT APPROVED !!!! I also had this conversation with John as calmly as I could to speak with his bosses to explain all this as he is never one to speak up and out, and the next day he called me to tell me his last work day was Sunday, 3 days away and now he has an extension of another week or so to make all this happen.

So......we moved into a house in a city we'd never been to, and which was only the 2nd picture I saw online that was worth considering. He put a deposit on it, without seeing it and before it was inspected.........what could go wrong? !!

Actually in this case NOTHING. All went smoothly, and 2 months later as it turns out, what seemed folly based on lack of experience, lack of time, lack of organization, desperation and jumping without looking, worked out, because this house is revealing its charms slowly, and how unbelievably perfect some things are.

I'm getting too much into this one aspect, but I wanted to give you an idea of the stress on top of trauma for me this has been, and for him stress.

However now I will show pictures of the house. These are from the pics online.
We called it the house with the blue shudders. I'm not crazy about this blue, but others are, but I will paint the shudders a nice turquoise blue when things cool down.



My favorite part of this house was that the kitchen was already white and the utility room which I've never had is inside the house as our last were outside on back porch. But there is so much space here. Our last house had only one narrow 7" drawer in kitchen. I was very clever in keeping things organized and neat. Here we have lots of space. I even want an island in the middle as it seems so bare. :D:D:D










This is the back of the house. That carport which I thought such an ugly structure though useful to keep my car under, is turning out to be my favorite hangout. You'll see why. I don't understand though why they didn't put shudders on the back and have such ugly stairs.....we'll have to fix that.










All is not done, but is livable and very cozy now.
The rains and thunderstorms.....well they're taking getting used to because I've never seen so many storms like this, daily, not even in South Florida all these past years.....its a bit scary, but then everything makes me jumpy. The storms batter the windows directly, never experienced that kind of noise and only panes of glass separating me from that violent storm? scary indeed! John needs to put up awnings on the windows and especially the sliding doors, the sun is brutal, not very good to sit out there for long. And I have developed sensitivity (cause I don't have enough) and experience real heat exhaustion, learned the hard way.

So now with my things in, I have some pictures. This is before we planted Italian Cypress, topiary and urns with flowers....... 










....and after........






This is all the landscaping I want to do for this year, I want to see how things go.














On the side of the house I planted Sky Pencil Holly, they're small but will grow. Also the yellow Thryalis which I love because they are fragrant and can take lots of sun and heat.





 I had two heavy cement urns I planted with palm to mark the halfway point of the driveway. It is an elegant hello.
 


 Inside......






Such a nice corner to do laundry and this has a closet to the left which we love having. We have closets here, did I mention that? Some walk ins! The previous house had only one, aside from tiny bedroom ones.







 I don't like seeing store containers, labels etc, so I remove everything and put them in glass containers with disolvable labels. So much cleaner and tranquil.








My room.




 View from window......









 Guest room.





Johns' room, god bless him....this will get the work it needs very shortly.




My bathroom with a Roman Tub.....I need baths as it turns out. Seems the salts and minerals make me feel renewed like nothing else does. It also removes 90% - 100% of my pains and helps me to sleep, so I love taking them. I will have to get this working soon. Needs lots of water, but idiot genius' installed a kitchen faucet and so it trickles and one cannot fill a tub this way. We have to fill a 5 gallon bucket from the other bathroom on the other side of the house and trek it to this tub when I need to take a bath. We're working on it....when john "gets around" to changing the faucet to a high volume one, it may work as it should. Plumber was here said its a job he wouldn't like. sigh.
But the light is so bright in all the rooms, and I can have plants inside the house now, not just outside.
This is how the bathroom was.........









The door to the closet inside the bathroom....I hung a crochet curtain panel I love.....




Needs organizing but I'm working on it.



Well, thats the house and how we live now.....all in the middle of 5 acres of grass and trees which is especially beautiful.

We do however have to mow those lawns and these people out here in country have some serious equipment. John had to buy a rider mower, but it turns out he likes it :D:D:......a new toy, he rides around. Even I have to do some because no way he can do it all himself. Takes two days if we really put our minds to it, but so far we haven't been able to. We either run out of gas, its too hot, or it rains, or we're too tired......its alot of grass. If we stay here, I will have to see about planting more trees.....which we started......I planted two Weeping Willows which need around 50 feet of space which we have, and I adore how they blow in the wind. We also planted a Leyland Cypress. They have yet to fill out....will take years, but are supposed to be among the fast growing trees.
I also planted Arborvitae by each post by the carport which is my new hangout.....they should fill out and look beautiful.....My new favorite in the plant kingdoms are the evergreens.....love them!!






And this is where I play the most, under the carport. We got two potting benches since we had to leave the one we built together at the other house, sadly, I loved it. But moving on....I have these two, where I can keep my things and they are covered mostly. See the third Italian Cypress here? the perfect spot for it on the backside of the house right next to the stairs and I can see it and talk to it every time I come out.....they do give good company you know,,,,they are just a bit stoic.





Bare stairs, with no place to sit in shade, very hot and no gardens.......





We planted our beloved herbs close to the house, but soon realized they were frying and burning in the relentless all day sun with no shade....so we had to add ugly shadecloth, now they are staying green. See Mr. Cypress? I love him there......





This carport has turned out to be very useful! I am planting a Wisteria at the corner, to grow over it.....waiting on john's help to create supports for it though.




 This is the all day shade part. I planted boxes of mixed salad greens that have sprouted beautifully. Thats another thing going right....seeds are sprouting and growing. Must be the well water!



And the very small aborvitae at both ends. Can't wait till they grow and fill out for more evergreen beauty.



And I know there were more details than some cared for, but some of my friends asked for those so there they are. Saves me repeating the story also......which hasn't really been told, is a book forthcoming, but how I am, where I'm living, and how its going is here. Things are finally going right....and thats an entirely new sensation for me. I keep expecting something to glitch, but not yet....quite the opposite....when we work on something it gets fixed. When we're looking for something in the stores like the Cypress, we find them, when we speak of something, it shows up.....its "wow" all the time now.

I guess because.........









Friday, April 27, 2018

"The Hidden Forces Of Life" by The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared. Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods http://serenaladyofthewoods.blogspot.com/

Hello People.....especially empaths, sensitives and those with Soul Light......

I am on a mission now....or rather again.......to reveal what has up to now wished to remain hidden. Some of these beings are aware of who and what they are and some of them are not aware of who and what they are and what they do.
These beings will even say themselves that they are of alien stock. I did not believe. I do NOW.
Once the shell shock wears off and I feel clarity, I am going to get to this like a pitbull with a bone.

*Note: Empaths, Sensitives, Ensouled Ones will be the most resistant to this information. Please do not resist. Knowledge of this will protect you, your soul and keep your life and soul YOUR OWN.

But I am here to make it clear.....these creatures are way beyond a mere psychological classification of having Personality Disorders. They are in fact the alien within, a result of hybridization, the result of "Genesis 6:2 "the sons of God saw that the daughters of mankind were beautiful, and they took any they chose as wives for themselves", or anything else spoken of as the historical events of the course of human evolution regarding the interspecies unions, or "merging your kind with our kind". The facts are that humans have been created, experimented with, mutated, transformed, controlled, stunted, and it continues. The facts are that in our times today, it is pandemic, it has increased. 
Please note the insanity around you. It is not human evolution, it is foreign devolution. And their purpose is to destroy the Light within those who carry that Light. Make no mistake.

I am here to reveal what has wished to remain hidden, because we will never release our selves unless we see what is truly happening in the real world, not in our belief systems conveniently given to us by those hidden hands, nor in the incessant brainwashing of the greater masses. Wake up. 
I have been messed with badly. They thought and sought to "take me Out" in uncountable ways throughout my life, which I thought was normal for everyone. It was not. 
Many friends questioned my choice, but I had "faith" in the goodness demonstrated.
I went from the fire into the frying pan. I got worse in my health. Then....WHAM.
It was intended to finish me off.
It did not.
I will not succumb to the darkness that destroys nor to false love and false light that is quick to rabid rage when you do not believe the "show".
I will grow in my Light.
The more I am messed with, the more I will grow.


I HAVE SPOKEN.


Beloved Ensouled ones, do not be fooled. Wake up. Drop beliefs and discard their brainwashing. SEE what is happening on Earth, around you and in your own life for what it is and recognize the attacks for what they are....not mere misfortune, not bad luck, not just "shit happens" but see it for the orchestrations that they truly are. If you are ensouled, you have been targeted and will be seen, and any attempts you have to assist your Self or others, will result in vengeance.
INVALUABLE information below, excerpts from "The Hidden Forces Of Life" by The Mother and Sri Aurobindo. For those who seek to understand the quagmire they are entangled in, in this life, and for those who wish to maintain their Light.

To be Free is to Know Truth.



The Hidden Forces of Life ~ Sri Aurobindo & The Mother

“Men are being constantly invaded by the hostiles (occult forces) and there are great numbers of men who are partly or entirely under their influence. Some are possessed by them, others (a few) are incarnations of hostile beings. At the present moment they are very active all over the earth. Of course in the outside world there is no consciousness, such as is developed in yoga, by which they can either become aware of or consciously repel the attacks – the struggle in them between the psychic (soul) and the hostile force goes on mostly behind the veil or so far as it is on the surface is not understood by the mind.

The apparent freedom and self-assertion of our personal being to which we are so profoundly attached, conceal a most pitiable subjection to a thousand suggestions, impulsions, forces which we have made extraneous to your little person. Our ego, boasting of freedom, is at every moment the slave, toy and puppet of countless beings, powers, forces, influences in universal Nature. All life is the play of universal forces. The individual gives a personal form to these universal forces.

But he can choose whether he shall respond or not to the action of a particular force. Only most people do not really choose – they indulge the play of the forces. Your illnesses, depressions, etc. are the repeated play of such forces. It is only when one can make oneself free of them that one can be the true person and have a true life – but one can be free only by living in the Divine.”

“The first attempt of the possessing entity is to separate the person from his psychic [soul], and it is that that creates the struggle. All depends on the extent and persistence of the possession – how much of the being it occupies and whether it is constant or not.

Hostile forces attack every sadhak; some are conscious of it, others are not. Their object is either to influence the person or to use him or to spoil his sadhana (spiritual practice) or the work or any other motive of the kind. Their object is not to test, but their attack may be used by the guiding power as a test.

It is one thing to see things and quite another to let them enter into you. One has to experience many things, to see and observe, to bring them into the field of the consciousness and know what they are. But there is no reason why you should allow them to enter into you and possess you. It is only the Divine or what comes from the Divine that can be admitted to enter you.

To say that all light is good is as if you said that all water is good – or even that all clear or transparent water is good: it would not be true. One must see what is the nature of the light or where it comes from or what is in it, before one can say that it is the true Light. False lights exist and misleading lustres, lower lights too that belong to the being’s inferior reaches. One must therefore be on one’s guard and distinguish; the true discrimination has to come by growth of the psychic feeling and a purified mind and experience.

Evil forces can always attack in moments of unconsciousness or half-consciousness or through the subconscient or external physical – so long as all is not supramentally transformed. The hostile forces do not need a cause for attacking – they attack whenever and whoever they can. What one has to see is that nothing responds or admits them.

The hostile forces have a certain self-chosen function: it is to test the condition of the individual, of the work, of the earth itself and their readiness for the spiritual descent and fulfillment. At every step of the journey, they are there attacking furiously, criticizing, suggesting, imposing despondency or inciting to revolt, raising unbelief, amassing difficulties. No doubt, they put a very exaggerated interpretation on the rights given them by their function, making mountains even out of what seems to us a mole-hill.

A little trifling false step or mistake and they appear on the road and clap a whole Himalaya as a barrier across it. But this opposition has been permitted from of old not merely as a test or ordeal, but as a compulsion on us to seek a greater strength, a more perfect self-knowledge, an intenser purity and force of aspiration, a faith that nothing can crush, a more powerful descent of the Divine Grace.

Whatever point the adverse forces choose for attack, however small it may seem to the external human mind, becomes a crucial point and to yield it up may be to yield to them one of the keys of the fortress. Even if it is a small postern door, it is enough for them if they can enter.

Nothing is really small and unimportant in the Great Path. Especially, when the struggle has come down to the physical level, these distinctions cease to have any value; for there “small” things have a not easily calculable index value and are of great importance. On that level to lose a small post may be to make certain the loss of the big battle.

All have had to pass through the ordeal and test through which you are passing. We would have avoided it for you if it had been possible, but since it has come we look to you to persist and conquer. Patience, quiet endurance, calm resolution to go through to the end and triumph, these are the qualities now required of you – the less spectacular but more substantial of the warrior virtues.

Also, perspicacity and vigilance. Do not shut your eyes to the difficulty in you or turn away from it, but also let it not discourage you. Victory is certain if we persevere, and what price of difficulty and endeavour can be too great for such a conquest?

These attacks very ordinarily become violent when the progress is becoming rapid and on the way to be definite – especially if they find they cannot carry out an effective aggression into the inner being, they try to shake by outside assaults. One must take it as a trial of strength, a call for gathering all one’s capacities of calm and openness to the Light and Power, so as to make oneself an instrument for the victory of the Divine over the undivine, of the Light over the darkness in the world-tangle. It is in this spirit that you must face these difficulties till the higher things are so confirmed in you that these forces can attack no longer.

There are two things that make it impossible for them [the hostile forces] to succeed even temporarily in any attack on the mind or the vital – first, an entire love, devotion and confidence that nothing can shake [embodied non-reactive zero-point consciousness], secondly, a calm and equality in the vital as well as in the mind which has become the fundamental character of the inner nature. Suggestions then may still come, things go wrong outside, but the being remains invulnerable. Either of these two things is sufficient in itself – and in proportion as they grow, even the existence of the hostile forces becomes less and less of a phenomenon of the inner life – though they may still be there in the outer atmosphere.”

Q: “There are some human beings who are like vampires. What are they and why are they like that?”

They are not human; there is only a human form or appearance. They are incarnations of beings from the world that is just next to the physical, beings who live on the plane which we call the vital world. It is a world of all the desires and impulses and passions and of movements of violence and greed and cunning and every kind of ignorance; but all the dynamisms too are there, all the life-energies and all the powers. The beings of this world have by their nature a strange grip over the material world and can exercise upon it a sinister influence.

Some of them are formed out of the remains of the human being that persist after death in the vital atmosphere near to the earth-plane. His desires and hungers still float there and remain in form even after the dissolution of the body; often they are moved to go on manifesting and satisfying themselves and the birth of these creatures of the vital world is the consequence. But these are minor beings and, if they can be very troublesome, it is yet not impossible to deal with them.

There are others, far more dangerous, who have never been in human form; never were they born into a human body upon earth, for most often they refuse to accept this way of birth because it is slavery to matter and they prefer to remain in their own world, powerful and mischievous, and to control earthly beings from there. For, if they do not want to be born on earth, they do want to be in contact with the physical nature, but without being bound by it.

Their method is to try first to cast their influence upon a man; then they enter slowly into his atmosphere and in the end may get complete possession of him, driving out entirely the real human soul and personality. These creatures, when in possession of an earthly body, may have the human appearance but they have not a human nature. Their habit is to draw upon the life-force of human beings; they attack and capture vital power wherever they can and feed upon it. If they come into your atmosphere, you suddenly feel depressed and exhausted; if you are near them for some time you fall sick; if you live with one of them, it may kill you.

Q:”But how is one to get such creatures out of one’s environment when they are once there?”

The vital power incarnated in these beings is of a very material kind and it is effective only within a short distance. Ordinarily, if you do not live in the same house or if you are not in the same company with them, you do not come within their influence. But if you open some channel of connection or communication, through letters, (note: email, facebook etc, in our day) for example, then you make possible an interchange of forces and are liable to be influenced by them even from a far distance.

The wisest way with these beings is to cut off all connection and have nothing to do with them – unless indeed you have great occult knowledge and power and have learned how to cover and protect yourself – but even then it is always a dangerous thing to move about with them. To hope to transform them, as some people do, is a vain illusion; for they do not want to be transformed. They have no intention of allowing any transformation and all effort in that direction is useless.

These beings, when in the human body, are not often conscious of what they really are. Sometimes they have a vague feeling that they are not quite human in the ordinary way. But still there are cases where they are conscious and very conscious; not only do they know that they do not belong to humanity but they know what they are, act in that knowledge and deliberately pursue their ends. The beings of the vital world are powerful by their very nature; when to their power they add knowledge, they become doubly dangerous.

There is nothing to be done with these creatures; you should avoid having any dealings with them unless you have the power to crush and destroy them. If you are forced into contact with them, beware of the spell they can cast. These vital beings, when they manifest on the physical plane, have always a great hypnotic power; for the centre of their consciousness is in the vital world and not in the material and they are not veiled and dwarfed by the material consciousness as human beings are."


Monday, March 19, 2018

The Narcissist IS An Alien Hive Force *edited Oct.2018

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared. Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods


I am writing for and to those who know there are both human and alien forces that is nothing like what "we" are. It requires blood. It requires pain. It destroys. It causes suffering. It is sick. It is psychopathic. It is deranged. It is insane. 


These Alien/Narcissists all operate the same. They all operate the same. They are all programmed the same. There is a checklist you can go through. They are a hive creature. Just listen to others. Listen.

Not all narcissists are alien, unfortunately some are indeed human. But when those who venture to seek out victims offer all the same things off their checklists and can be observed to follow a certain protocol of behaviors and tactics common among them, they are operating all the same. These are your aliens. They have always been here, but now we are awakening to them.


Misplaced Compassion for "Woundedness" is Your Downfall


I sadly hear many, and I used to believe this to a small degree, that the evil ones were "simply those who forgot who they truly are"....that they are wounded so much they forgot their divinity. This is true only in very few cases, but in most it is not.

I have been truly wounded, starting as a child, when my father held me at gunpoint at the age of 4. His father too was a totally sick man. I have had numerous men trying to kill me with guns or what have you, been betrayed often, surrounded by drugs and violence......etc etc etc. But NEVER in all my days did I ever think of inflicting such onto another human being ever. I did become smarter and learned to defend myself against those men and those who inevitably will come in the future for there is no end to them, but I never became the sick one. I never turned into them. Because I am of the Divine Spark. My Soul will not allow me to become sick. In fact what we become are HEALERS.

They claim any "excuse" or "reason" according to their sick minds to do what they do.
But no being of empathy or love becomes a psycho out to kill others, especially innocents.
I have a soft spot for vigilantes though, but that is another story.


Pleasant Beliefs vs Awful Truth

If you are not that, you cannot become that. Period. Nothing can corrupt you. Sadly though you can go mad, get depressed and suicidal, but you do not become them.
Psychos are psychotic and a shapeshifeter, a type of chameleon who changes as their needs change to suit their goals. The invader alien is narcissistic. They are not wounded, they are cancer. This "wounded" belief is a projection of yourself (mostly women) onto another trying to make your truth theirs. You believe everyone is like you. I did this for decades and was nothing but chronically stupid and I suffered terribly from delusions so that when the painful truths hit me, it had to be brutal, with the proverbial holy 2x4's over and over till I was black and blue and on the floor wondering WTF is going on?! Only then, so totally broken down, with all my worthless delusional beliefs shattered like glass around me, when all I held to be true was failing miserably, repeatedly, in real time, could I open into accepting what is real, and change from being merely a believer to a knower. It hurt my brain terribly to go from pleasant beliefs to the awful truths. Horrible as it is, and how much I wanted to believe the pleasant nice beliefs, I was living the worst kinds of lies. And in my severe ignorance of beliefs was helping in keeping hidden the toxic presence amongst humanity.

What I believed got me in trouble. The truth however has set me free. And now I hope to help you be free......be free.
Be free.
Know and be free. Breathe deep.


Soulless/Aliens Count On Your Ignorance

Those soulless ones count on your belief that we are all the same. It is good only for them if you believe that. They, however, get stronger while you get weaker. If you persist, "they need more love".....you are engaging in absolute foolhardiness and abject stupidity.....you are on dangerous ground. We are most certainly NOT all the same, not one bit.

They count on this as it continues and fosters more compassion their way, and rich feeding/vampiric times. It is a fatality for you and causes an often irreversible harm to your own psyche for endless years to believe in something so egregiously false. And by your support of them they thrive and you suffer. By proposing "woundedness" as opposed to the truth of them as the predator within, you encourage others to also have such misplaced compassion and further promote more foolish gullible, guileless people into also projecting compassion onto predators giving them more to feed on, and so you become accessory to this pandemic predation. You become the cult like unwitting supporter.

One must be savvy in picking these alien/narcisist/NPC's out. Be clever in testing them and never give away your heart unless you feel sure you are dealing with something genuine. Intuition, that hallmark signature of women over eons, which has been demonized (by them) is the way to knowing.

Annihilation of The Divine Spark is its goal.

Pain is its hallmark.

You see it everywhere throughout human existence throughout human history. The evil ones are here.
Some are blatant, servants of outright violence, rapists, pedophiles, murderers, serial killers, boston stranglers, dr jekyll/mr.hydes, jack the rippers, genocides, and countless other men who simply reincarnate over and over again en masse......armies and legions in every country of gangsters, soldiers of war, legalized assassins, their churches and Inquisitions, their 911's bombings, self sanctioned weaponized crime organizations, supremacists and separatists out to destroy family and societies, mind controllers, EMF and other nefarious frequencies......etc etc etc, these men have infected life with torment for as long as there have been men.  And the non-violent disease of left brained dominism, ridicule of right brain, ware on "feminine" things, the outright war on woman, the war on love, the war on care, the war on peace, the war on critical thinkers. One would think this is more than enough to destroy a species.
Why have humans never learned that killing and hurting others is only sickness. How does it go on and on?? How is it that throughout thousands of years, murder, rape and violence has not diminished?
Who are these creatures? where do they come from? why is there no end to them?

This is one breed of destroyer. The overt.

There is another. The covert.


The Soulless

There are those who want to destroy the innocents, the empaths, the true Divine Spark, The Soul...... they say "Something else had to be done. Before it is too late. Before they (The Light) moves on, gets more powerful and wiser and we can no longer destroy them."
There are the archontic types who were not out to destroy us due to some "laws of universe" but "only" wanted us diminished, wanted us weakened and incapacitated, to keep us small and devolved. Now I know of this other predator who is actually trying to destroy the Light from within, an interspecies predator actively seeking to destroy those Ensouled Ones, the Light, as they are a type of hybrid creature with only one goal for their created lives, to destroy the Light. They destroy one then move on to the next, and often are working many at once. These ones are the most lively and confident creatures walking this earth. There are so many of them. It is not admirable to see those who do not suffer, it is suspicious when one doesn't suffer.

It has been written in every "holy" text of those who want to annihilate the God Spark.... found in the gentle one, the kind one, the compassionate one, the love. They want to destroy those who espouse love and harmony....who live for Beauty and Peace. They are still out to destroy GOD.


And there is the one who looks just like us.....hiding within our species, not outside of humanity, but within........in the last place we'd look......and this is one of the more sinister plots.
The "kind charismatic" vampire.

What would you do if you wanted to destroy someone/s from the inside out? you would ask these questions........

"How can we infect the humane species?
How can we live off them without them fighting back? without their knowledge. We want to destroy them from the inside out.
We don't need resistance, we only need to feed/suck vital essence out. How can we do this? Confusion, obfuscation, mixed in with good behavior....so we will not be detected. They will never suspect such a thing, we have taught them not to believe in us.

"The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist." ~ Charles Baudelaire.


The Fungus Among Us 

"We will be born into their families.
We will merge within society.
We will gaslight them to foster confusion.
We will perform good deeds so we will be accepted from their hearts.
We will appear as they, they will never know.
We will sow discord, but they will forgive.
We will feed on them but they will go to doctors.
We will create frenzies but they will take themselves into therapy.
We will feed and they will not be the wiser.
They are a free source of willing energy.
If they suspect us we will turn on them and point the finger at them, they are too naive, for they cringe at confrontation.
And by these methods, we will destroy them from the inside out."




News: The Narcissist/alien is not a dysfunctional human......it is not a real human. It has our biology, but it is an alien force hiding in human form, specifically to dupe and deceive, to be the silent black force that no one can fight because it is not suspected. That is the point, to hide detection, so suspicion will not rise in us. Because humans have uncanny abilities to retaliate and rebuke anything, once they see it. For some evils are powerless when faced down.

They know, if you don't see it, you can't rebuke it, and fostering cognitive dissonance confusion adds to their power.
Detection is the downfall of the evil that hides.



They are not human. Its that simple. Now you know. You can drop them, move on and be free.

Some of us cringe when we hear those speak of humanity as being merely biological robots in a meaningless universe........it is true for the alien. They are projecting (themselves). It is however NOT true for us. Our Light and Souls have the ability to transform us. They speak of themselves and proselytize this "meaningless" life so brilliantly because they are convinced and convinced people are soooo convincing......and gullible humanity begins to believe too, and in our hopelessness are ripe for the vampirism. They are self appointed authoritarians on any subject they choose and humans are suckers for those who sound confident and "knowledgeable". Its all a trick, a ruse, don't fall for it.


We Must Hold On To Our Values and Our Love

For us, there is nothing BUT meaning. There is only magnanimity, potential, greatness, expansion, bliss, euphoria, beauty, and all the ineffable feelings that come with all of that!
For them there is none of that, and they refer often to humans as meatsuits and futility of "existence", and they will ask you why you fantasize in false dreams. Laugh at them! You have just encountered the crux of their lifelessness and their own deep meaninglessness, the soulless.


You Can Survive Them By Total Disengagement

You can disengage them. Totally diffuse their hidden vampirism. Simply close yourself down to them....do not give them any authentic interaction, no opening of your Self, your heart, your mind, your emotions, your thoughts, nothing. (I have since learned there is a term for this called "grey rock". Know you are dealing with/talking with shit. If you must because you work with them or live with them give them small talk and be polite but always keep it short and simple, and turn around and walk away and they will crumble. However, only time will cure the ick your soul has had from contamination with these creatures, it will have scars and need devotion and lots of self love. These creatures are like radiation poison....it is invisible, scentless, but you will degrade in its presence.

Remember there are more of them than us, and yes this is about us vs them now, no more f**king around here. I'm not creating division, I'm calling it out! I'm tired of the suffering, the predation, the people who are kind who are in hiding, who are ill, who are victimized and then blamed, I'm effin tired of it all. We need to wake up to the horrid truths and get tough.

KNOW, if you are empathic you are already known and it is only a matter of time before you find yourself engaging one or likely more of these because they are actively seeking you/us out. If you get rid of one, there will be another behind him. Their hive mind/matrix operates on another level that is highly organized, and then is deployed onto individuals.

We need to test people, and test them well, and pay attention to our bodies and its messages. I've had messages from my own body that were incredibly strong but my mind could not grasp nor understand the intense warnings and I always dismissed them as being crazy. My mind and judgements were my own worst enemy. My spirit and biology was properly responding to the real and present danger while my mind betrayed me. I will never ever doubt my body again and I will tell my ignorant mind to shut up.

Test your new acquaintances over and over before you share, before you begin to give, your heart, your feelings, your kindness....Know Thy Self and Know Thy Enemy.....for you dear empath, have a stealth predator who knows how to find your particular brand of richness, but you don't know how to detect them.....they managed this.......and they will come for you over and over again. Feel and know.

But you can be rid of them.....you sure can.
Then spend time recovering from the slime, nurture yourself in Nature, with gentle loving people and animals, plants, flower essences, music etc. I've said all this already but it cannot be stressed enough.

*update: since moving away from said creature, I have since had another one come into my life trying to instill his grandness, and try to convince me of his wonderfulness too. He also had the air of ''the mayor'' who knew everyone, all the right people and was "in the know" about everything. He was charming too, that wonderful BEHAVIOR that is so practiced to perfection, the smiles and even the glint in the eye.....so well practiced. I had ''signs'' however about this one I was about to befriend because his friendliness was all so consuming and so grasping, but as I followed him in my car to the farmers market he wanted to show me, a huge plastic garbage can fell out of his trailer and could have killed me if my responses were not fast enough or clever enough, as I did 60mph and trying to dodge that thing with another car on my tail was life threatening in an intense moment. I did dodge the thing as it also bounced a bit to the left and avoided my windshield and I didn't have to swerve too fast and thank goodness the tailing driver also swerved away from me. The sign was ~huge garbage nearly killing me, definitely putting my life in danger and here I am following this one of my own accord~. Metaphor anyone? When we finally parked he blithely apologized for the garbage can nearly causing a possible fatality. There was another clue: complete disregard for my well being. Not, stopping on the side of the road to collect his can, or to check on me, no, just keep driving and then casually dismiss the life threat, no biggie.
Another sign was the phone calls, the friendly "oh lets go for a coffee" thing, and "I will just happen to be in your neighborhood", "oh I'd rather meet in person rather than talk on the phone"....and all sorts of comments like that trying to get you in their presence hard and fast despite me telling him I was not feeling well and needed to be mostly quiet and to myself these days. Then I got the ''butt call'' when they call you and when you return the call tell you the phone did it by itself?.....this is a test to see if you'd be receptive since they ran out of excuses to call you, so they blame the phone and test you. I didn't go for that either.....had too many of them too. Then the next tactic is to outright ask you for that connection and meeting, to pin you down and blow away your resistance and how you respond to that force of aggression is when you will get their true intention. If you fall for the force and meet them despite your own feelings, they know they can control you and will continue to do so. If you say no and mean it, they will drop you like you meant nothing to begin with. No, they are not respecting your ''space" and giving you time, they have dumped you before you could dump them, because they could not bait you.  They are predictable. I have learned these things and am able to see them coming, can predict the behaviors and tactics now and it is always to the letter/script/program.

If you escape one, another will be sent right after. If you are watching out for them now, and can smell them and predict their behaviors which are very predicable and negate them and reject them, they will no longer be sent to you. And I do mean "sent".....because that is exactly what is happening. You dear empath are not attracting them to you by some nonsensical "like attracts like" forces, no, this is more of "opposites is attracting them to you".....more like moths to a flame..... they are literally sent to you because they are looking to feed and destroy, and YOU ARE NOT. A parasite has a function and it is to seek out and destroy those with Light/Soul. There is a pandemic program out there to seek out and destroy. They are a weapon. Deployed with purpose and relentless. Do not go into denial, be weak, ignorant or dismissive.
However, no soldier of war can be successful if he is being observed and deflected.

 

Friday, March 16, 2018

Why Narcissists Need Empaths, But Don't Walk, Run From Them!

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared. Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods

February 20, 2018

As with most "common knowledge" I see written and spoken loosely without much thought, it is commonly said that empaths are attracted to narcisists/alien/vampirics....and this is utter nonsense. Just think about that one. Who "needs" or is "attracted" to having their life essence drained from them? No one. What is happening is what I call "The Lure" or "The Seduction" which empaths are unfortunately prone to falling for. We are not too resistant to this fake behavior as we should be. We simply do not see it coming. The behaviors of the lure seem genuine, often involving "proof of genuineness" via acts of money spent and deeds done and an apparent "its all for you" attitude. It looks and appears real. Its NOT.
The fact is, its the other way around: narcissists/alien/vampirics need the empath. Hence the whole strategy of "The Lure". Empaths do not need their life blood or life energies drawn out of them. There is only the need of the predator. Without the predation, life energies and life forces will stay where they belong and do what they were meant to do, nurture the ensoulled being, and we can be who and what we were meant to be. The predator changes it all.



Ratio of Real People to Fake People?

I have spent literally hundreds of hours, untold days, months and years, including the cost of my perfect vision, reading, researching, studying the alien presence on Earth. I am sure it has always been here. The tricky part are those who look just like us. This is where it gets tricky, but the fact is aliens are here who look just like humans, and they learn how to blend in.


Empaths/Highly Sensitive People, it is believed, comprise only 20% of the worlds population. It is an interesting coincidence that it is also believed by many in the spiritual communities especially of experiencers that empty shell, soulless, alien, NCP's/whatever term, comprise 80% of the population. You do the math. But I do not know for sure. I still struggle wrapping my head around that.  I do know that the majority of people are the empty shell ones, with spirit and biology yes, they eat, sleep, reproduce, and have jobs and "relationships", but lack the Divine Spark (soul) which is filled with virtue, emotional nuance, eternal wisdom, and especially authentic heart based response to any situation.

*Note: there are those who feel the other way around with the terms "soul" and "spirit". I am using it the way I have understood all my life. Soul is the aspect that is the Divine Spark from Source. Spirit is what animates the biology, or body of the living. That is as far as I care to delve in this.....because it has not been proven either way and I have not found anything else that explains so much. 


Dont get me wrong, these empty shells/aliens/etc can still do "good deeds" and may even do them often but they always have a reason/motive/agenda for it. It is never simply out of heart for anothers own good, to then move on once the good deed/s are done. There will be something to pay. But the most important thing to know, is beyond having agendas, they are a living black hole sucking Vital Essence out of the living eternal Soul.....and they target empaths as a high source of their energetic needs. For who is more filled with true energy than one who feels what everyone around them feels? That is why empaths always have one or several around them.

They are expert charmers and friendly. They want to get ''in''. It is a tool/device they use to get in.

These people sometimes, will right away rub you the wrong way, or you will feel ick in their presence, or you will not be able to tolerate them for more than an hour, and you will not understand your feelings. You will judge yourself as being judgemental, or having "issues" or feel guilty about "mirroring" etc etc. But it is not you, not if you are an empath, it is not you. You feel that way for damn good reasons and if so I would say now in hindsight to effin run the other way as fast as you can! Do not feel guilty, or think you're being judgemental, or give them 2nd, 3rd chances. YOU are the one who will wind up in the psyche ward, needing meds, and therapy, and they are on their merry way, with more tricks and on to the next unsuspecting guileless one.

What I have learned, is that narcissists/alien/NPC's (Non Player Character is a term in the gaming world, that describes characters that are not controlled by the player but are programmed with predetermined behaviors) are greatly attracted to empaths for a true endless source of the energies they need. Empaths always have one or more of them around them and feel always drained. It was revealed to me quite simply, they need the empath to both learn from and to steal vital energies. They need to learn how to assimilate into social behavioral 'norms', and to do that they need to emulate, well, real humans with real feelings. They will not get that training from other empty shells. They all need to learn, so they seek out the ones who have feelings, who possess a universe of rich emotion. They observe, learn, and when their trigger moments come, they repeat. They excel at this mimicry. They are masters of timing. But as they are appearing to be human, they are sucking the life out of things, to make things less vital, less in its light.
And no, they are not aware this is what they're doing. They're unconscious vampires/aliens.


Why Are They Here?

The empty shell people/alien/NPC's are here to keep the status quo. Not just to assimilate, their effects are to remove/replace/delete/ the real humane being, the empathic ones who are divinely lit from within, and to, well....you figure out the rest. I only know they are here and they are master mimickers and cause terrible psychological and spiritual damage and are draining Vital Life Forces.
However, they are flawed.


I am thinking of this as a takeover. One can call it an invasion or infestation, whatever, it is done. It is already done. It has happened. But we didn't catch on because "authorities" are completely in charge of the campaign to dismiss their existence.
They are sleeper invaders not knowing themselves for what they are, a perfect plausible deniability deployment. They operate instinctually. It is unconscious on their part. They know not who they are. They are mental creatures/beings who espouse an unemotional propensity. They are of the intellect (trite as that is) and are of a single hive mind, they all function the same way for the same purpose, albeit in biological seemingly human bodies.

For this takeover to be successful they had to imitate the real human and humanE behaviors, the last thing they want is for anyone to watch them or pay attention too closely. Hence the search for the real humane being with feelings. That is why again, Highly Sensitive People, Empaths, Psychics etc are surrounded by these types and often do not know what they are dealing with.
This is an infestation of something foreign to Nature. Totally foreign.
They are human robotics in our biological form. Their effects are a disturbing disharmony when in their presence. We don't meld, we don't mesh. We have compassion and are brainwashed to accept all people as equal, as one, and so the gentle folk will always invite them in, ignoring the disharmonious energies, whether they be stark and shocking, or subtle small things you accept for noble reasons, albeit to your detriment. The lack of harmony with these ones is the nexus point to be aware of at all times. You will feel great disharmony around them, regardless of what they say etc, and this is where you EXIT.


This post is about recognizing them and how to deal or cope when you cannot escape because they are either family members, you live with them, or work with them etc.


For those lit from within, there are giveaways and I will discuss those.

Though they fool most of the people most of the time, they don't fool every one all the time. There are those few who know that something is off, eg; laughter at all the wrong times, or a repeated platitude that seems a one size fits all for situations from death to storytelling etc. For example they may say, ''oh yeah, sure sure!''....for everything....even when you spoke of death or loss.....they didn't catch themselves. And they always got away with it because most other people are not listening or are one of them. You heard it, but excused it. Misplaced compassion. Pay attention.


These alien/NPC's are most comfortable with the daily trite and platitudinous way of chatting with the people on Earth, small talk etc. Most people are content to just engage them and respond also superficially and the NPC's really engages this believing they sound so good and ''normal"....and they love that, no questions. Most respond favorably and accommodatingly to their fakeness and no one was wiser. They love this. They are fitting in. You however, will be stopped in your flow, and blink a few times, then blow it over, especially when they have all the quick quips, laughter to cover up etc. Do not blow anything over. If it happens again, go deeper, question and question until you get to the bottom. If no satisfactory response comes, then you have your cue to move on.

I personally find it abhorrent and cannot stand to engage those people with any amount of conversation more than two words, hello and goodbye. I have been exposed to too much of this vacuous chatting. I even know one who often responds before you even finish your sentence and they didn't realize they responded to the sad news with an ''oh sure, right, right''. Seriously ?!!

They also possess a mentality that is cunningly exploratory for more tips on how to behave including the timing to "execute the computed response". They will hear a comment or statement one says, and then adopt it for their own. They will repeat this to you hoping you recognize it as a "commonality you share" and you know you said it, or felt it originally, but then this will be repeated by them even though you can't find how it is relevant to them at all. They don't care, they are mimickers and are repeating. And don't you dare question them! They are always right. You may express yourself because some of them know you have that right, but they will dismiss it anyway. They don't need your knowledge, they only need your authentic vitality.

There are some who are incredibly arrogant and egoic. They are also masters of obfuscation, and will never answer a question directly but will respond with long drawn out statements, and end with a question for you that takes you away from your original question. To fuck them up.....repeat the exact question. You will see lots of blinking.....and then either an indignation or anger that you dared question them, or that you seem suspicious, and they will accuse you of being "behaviorally incorrect" or of doubting them, and think or accuse you of impertinence....wow! LOL. Masters I tell you!!!
Most don't catch this, but bow to this total power play.
Some feel they mastered this behavioral thing and don't allow one to question them so they are simply vampiric and fully ''in their power''.

 If you, in your humanity offer to be social with them and talk and try to be open and authentic speaking of your life and stories, they see this as an invitation, an opportunity for authentic energy ''exchange' mostly from you of course, and for them the opportunity to gain that energy. If you remained guarded there will be no energy exchange. But if you open up and share your emotions, feelings, dreams etc you will be sucked dry. You will have revealed your precious heart's contents and they have learned how to steal yet more behavioral info, to both work on you, and their continual training in ''how to blend'' and they have fed on this precious divine energy. You will feel empty or drained afterwards. Watch for this.

Sometimes, they turn off the "opportunist agenda" and will sound "pleasant", and you will feel once again you have been wrong about them, but then watch for the bite back. The little white lies, the beating around the bush, the dismissals, the quick quips and platitudes.

Another important hallmark difference is the Critical Need for Beauty. Those with soul require beauty of Nature as being part of their essence, they require Nature and feel they're in the womb of The Great Mother when in Nature, surrounded by Nature, we crave it and are happiest in beautiful environments with many plants and trees, we are fed by Nature, find joy in Nature. We also require quality real foods and water at all times. The need for Beauty revitalizes the ensouled ones and the rich universe of the Soul and its essence of Source and the stars and cosmos therein. We feel all of this. Conversely the alien/NPC's/aliens use Beauty as a prop. They stage items of beauty around them but they don't "need" them, but use Beauty to camouflage. Some don't bother with this staging.

A feeling you want to look for in companionship is the deeply peaceful silence you can share with another, where you can sigh in comfort just being in the presence of someone. This what you want.

I can go on and on about this but there is tons of information on the net about this with great details from experiencers with them, mostly referring to narcissists but I am including the alien/NPC's.
And some of the information on them will vary depending on just how manipulative they are, their intelligence quota, if they have agendas, etc. But you will always feel "off" spending time with them. 


My Advise for Empaths and Highly Sensitive/Sophisticated People

I will however, be short and succinct with my advise for your own sanity......empath and HSP people....do not engage these narcissist/alien people, do not believe they are ''teachable'', or that they are troubled, or had a past that you need to offer compassion to, or that they are "wounded" - huge one, or any other excuse you can come up....just get the hell away from them if you want to maintain your sanity and your life force.....because it is life force they drain. But true life force from those Lit From Within will be drained and the dissonance you feel in your psyche and spirit will need quite a while to recover.
Life force is the most precious thing in the cosmos, and that is what they want. They do not possess this. It is a vital energy that is the possession of the true human, the one with a soul, with rich emotional/feeling content, virtue, good will etc etc.
It is you who will feel vampirized and energetically violated and you won't understand how or why. They never get drained, never feel vampirized and often speak demeaningly of those who do feel this. They do not wind up disturbed or bothered unless they suspect you of suspecting them. But they need you. YOU DO NOT NEED THEM AT ALL. They are not redeemable, they are your parasite. Do not be a willing host. The Earth is littered with them.

What is also important to know, is that though there are lots of true humans on Earth, they are not all empathic and these ones will be able to tolerate them better.
However, the empath will have a strong repulsive feeling, which initially they may feel guilty about, because geez what has this person done to you (so far)? nothing, they say all the right things, behave well and even do good deeds, so why the ick? However, its the empath who will suffer a growing sickness within that requires lots of space and time and Nature and nurturing away from them to recover. If you live with them, I am sorry. For your own life, if you choose to live with your own autonomy, then get the hell out and never look back, find other empaths and spend time with them.

You will feel yourself growing dark and wonder how this can possibly be. You will feel suspicion and not know where it comes from and be disappointed in your innocent self. Don't be.
You will loose your playfulness and wonder where it went.
You will loose your vitality and what ability to conjure up happy thoughts in your way of being you and wonder why that is. You will feel anxiety and want meds for the first time in your life.

The results of being in these soulless beings presence will cost you far more than you could ever think of, more than you can know. You will find yourself aging faster, and though you do all the right things and eat well, you do not understand this loss of VITAL ENERGIES........

Make no mistake, these ones, including other powers and principalities are the cause of all trauma on Earth, and the traumas are felt by those with Soul.

I am telling you......run away from them, run from them all and be very careful, dear empath, who you choose to spend your time with. Trust your first feelings, and dont' talk yourself out of them with negative self judgement.
Go into Nature for long periods of time. Buy flowers and plants and surround yourself with them inside your home. Listen only to soothing music and anything that can revitalize your Soul Essence.

The Greater Scope of the Effects of These Soulless Ones:

So what happens after you realize the vampiric nature of these ones? Their abilities to suck vital energies from a human? What happens if we pan out to look at the greater picture? Of the world?

I am taking this vampiric capability of these soulless ones/NPC's/empty shells further out than the one person to person or empath/narcissistic effects. These empty shells because of their own lack of vital energies have the ability/need/intent/default-nature to kill the vital energy of the living. It will be sucked out of the person, the family, the workplace, the town, the city, country, the planet. Living things will have shorter life spans, they will not have optimum growth, they will be diseased. Trees will die faster, grow shorter, plants will not be as vital not produce as many flowers, animals will become sick and people become, well, as you can see around you on this Earth what its become.

I am wondering now, if the planet has been infested with these beings for so long if this has been the demise of the quality of life. How can it not be? How can it not be the toxin, the invisible pollution that has reversed Life Force, Prana, Loving Energy? How can it not be killing what is innocent, what is clean, what is pure what is gentle, what is pristine and prevents all that beauty from radiating its light. Is it any wonder so many beautiful souls, so many great hearts are sick, at home, often alone? wondering WTH life is about really? wondering how they got to where they are, why their dreams didn't work out? how can every effort to gain momentum in ones creation of life results in something backwards or even reversed? Is there such an opposing energy that can do this? I say emphatically yes!


Final Thoughts

Granted it could be that real ensoulled humans may be the alien on a strange planet, duped into incarnating here in the first place. I don't know who belongs or doesn't. It doesn't matter in this post which is focusing on how the narcissist/alien/NPC needs the empath, and not the other way around.

I also am coming to terms with the belief that the 20% real ensouled beings/empaths and the 80% alien/NPC/narcissist ratio is real, and I have a theory that most ensouled beings are no longer incarnating in this plane. Those ensouled ones here are the last remnants of Real Humanity, and are phasing themselves out of this false matrix.
In playing further with this idea, could this be the beginning of the end? That eventually the ensouled ones no longer incarnate here and ''the game of life" the archons devised where so many of the dark ones have created this diabolical recycling reincarnation pit, a virtual playground for evil forces of a variety of deviations, into a holographic simulation of horrors in this matrix on Earth, have possibly created for themselves their own annihilation? That when ensouled beings no longer arrive onto this planet and they no longer have victims, they will starve but be locked into their own invention of the recycling incarceration wheel of fortune? Nice to think about. So it could be the archontics, devising a way to entrap souls, have in fact created their own demise? What a pleasant thought.