MESSAGE TO ALL DRACOS, REPTILIANS, THOSE WHO HURT OTHER BEINGS

Things are rolling into hyperdrive. Decisions have been made. Choices have been made. Full Stop.

Simple statement to the world of powers and principalities, overlords, darkness, evil, patriarchy, and any beings/creatures who are manipulating, parasitizing, or hurting other living beings, especially humanity, who wants to live unharmed and who wish no harm to you. I speak on behalf of UNIVERSAL SOVEREIGN CREATRIX who are choosing Now.
WE are many yet One Voice.

Eons of time have gone by and no one, not you nor those you hurt are achieving any possible goal of any being of intelligence, which is all that True Universe supports. If your existing purpose is to keep humanity and Earth, Life, submitted into less than what their potentials are and to distort, cripple and maim, you are simultaneously limiting them and condemning yourselves as well.
No one who hurts or torments other beings is free. Have you condemned yourselves to being slaves?

Manipulators align themselves to those they manipulate by default, and by Universal Natural Law the manipulated can choose how to proceed and this choice includes you.
If you have committed to being slaves, pawns of torment, then you have admitted to having no intelligence nor useful purpose in the Natural Universe and whose fate is total demise. You are a cancer and make all you touch cancerous and whose destructive nature will soon obliterate all of life including yourselves.

Many of those you are hurting are making a Choice now themselves, one which includes you by default. Because we have been the unwitting host to an unrelenting parasitic destructive force we are taking a dramatic stance in which you are symbiotically attached by nature of your parasitism.
The hurting has gone too far, and what on your part was a control and domination paradigm has become your demise. Or your liberation. Including those who merely ''follow orders''.
Because We have chosen, you now have a choice.

The choices are, that you immediately and collectively cease and desist in your torment and hurting of others especially humanity, and choose to becoming beings who are free and continues to live, to fulfill a Universal intrinsic need for individuated purpose, now and in future, sovereign unto yourselves, to return back to Source/God/Creator and explore your own potentials for Life. Some will say this is Light, simply it is Free Living. You can live unharmed yourselves as long as you do not harm others.

The other choice is that you continue in your hurtful ways, hurting, crippling and destroying those who are not yours to hurt, and annihilation will come to both you and those you hurt. The parasite dies with the host.
Universal Laws are being revised, rewritten, by Universal Sovereign, to accommodate all that is taking place and in no dimension or reality can these laws be distorted.

ALL beings require Humanity to Succeed in becoming FREE for their own progression.

The power lies with those who CHOOSE. Those aware and affected by you are choosing NOW.
Those who are not aware of you are decaying, being destroyed by you and soon you will have nothing because New Law states that though for eons you have manipulated realities and stolen, you can no longer have what is not yours to take, not here, not anywhere. LAW. CHOICE. WILL.


Your domination and destruction of life and liberation of humans cannot continue because we have Chosen and We Have Spoken. By manipulating us you have aligned and attached yourselves to us and by Universal Natural Law you are ours.


WE have chosen to go towards Light and Life, liberated and liberating others, all sovereign unto ourselves, free of you and any of your kind who hurt. Uncompromising choice, full stop.
And you can come with us, amnesty given, crimes forgiven, we all live free.

Or you will go into oblivion with us, because we will take you.
Unless you liberate yourselves from us Now, We can and WILL make this choice for you.

Its up to you.

Sovereign Has Spoken.



Serena, Lady of the Woods
http://serenaladyofthewoods.blogspot.com/

Interesting Chanelled Message Relating to My Draco Experience

The below is a response to my draco post from someone on the 2012 Emergence site, where I post and administrate.

Lady Serena, your post strikes to the heart of the matter of Light Workers, Sensitives, the Eayshowers, who hold the Light for the planet since our rival, are under the heaviest attack ever.
You described exactly asI have been feeling. then I read this message for a channel, Will Berlinghof, who channels a 12th dimension being called Cosmic Awareness.He speaks of the same phenomenon, that the Matrox engineers have ramped up attacks on the spiritual ones, to break us.
Thank you for sharing your amazing message- it shows us the light is all powerful- and now this Draco needs a new job- yes, many will want to come to the light and not know how.
Love and Blessings, Susanna

Here' the message:

That there is both an opening message and an event that this Awareness would like to discuss at this time. The event that this Awareness is referring to is not an actual event that one has seen on their TVs or heard about over the radio or read about in the newspapers. It is rather have an event of a global nature that is occurring at this time and is of great enough significance that this Awareness would like to discuss this event at this time. That the event that this Awareness is referring to is the blanketing of the planet by those who have access to certain advanced technologies, those who are controlling the planet at this time, or at least attempting to control and manipulate the planet at this time. This in reference to those this Awareness has in the past called the Archons or the Orion/Reptilian ones, or the elites, the illuminati, etc. There are, as always, many names for the groups and the subgroups that are plotting to possess the planet and to do with humanity what they

will.

That at this time, there is a concerted effort by these ones to create that which is an energetic/psychic blanket over and around the planet. That this has been underway for some time but has become quite intense and extreme in the last several months. This Awareness has spoken in the past of the heavy degree of oppressive energies that are currently occurring upon this planet. That this oppressive energy has been ramped up ten- fold through the use of certain advanced technologies and that this force of blanketing or suppression or oppression – that this is being directed to those of a spiritual nature, those who are seeking to move forward, who hold something within them that is hope for the future, a sense and feeling that which lies ahead will destroy that which has been. That which is the future is one that is bright and aligned with Spirit and with the living consciousness of this planet, of Mother Earth herself.
There are many indeed who simply know within themselves that it is time for change, who feel within themselves the urge to make change, to be part of the shift that is underway that will bring Mother Earth through the powerful transition she is going through as well as seeing humanity be successful in the same way: shifting consciousness, awakening that which is within each and every human being that which is awaiting the opening to the future, to that which lies ahead, a future free of oppression, enslavement, domination, death and destruction.
These ones who have control, who are the hidden ones behind the scenes, also know that this type of future, this possibility for freedom and for spiritual evolution, is available to humanity. It is one of the multiple timelines that exist. It is one that will take humanity down a road to the eventual evolution of human consciousness to such a high degree that it will step into that which is its true nature. It will in some ways return back to a state of being that humanity once occupied before the Fall, before the takeover, before those who have been in charge for several hundred thousand years came to this planet.
That those Archon forces, those in particular that are in control at the head of the pyramid, the apex of the pyramid, know that this future awaits humanity. But they also know, since

they work with timelines from the fourth dimension, that there are other timelines as well that will suit them better, where they stay in charge, where they stay in control.
In the past this Awareness has spoken of this and declared it to be the planet B scenario. Those who are not ready to move on, those who are not ready to partake in the bright future and want the continuance of that which already is, will go to those timelines that this Awareness has designated as the planet B scenarios.
But this leaves room for the many who do not wish to go down that dark and desperate road. That there are many who want to continue with humanity, having third dimensional experiences in the physical, while contained in that which is a dualistic paradigm of belief, a paradigm that offers this or that choice.
That one is able, through such an experience, to grow and develop, and there are many aspects of the soul that are here to experience this choice: a choice in balance and in harmony, not one that is predominated over by those with the hidden agenda, that have access to truth that the majority does not have access to. That it is dumbed down in its psyche and its consciousness, thus not even striving towards enlightenment and awareness.
But in that which is the A/B scenarios, for there are many versions, that basically the goal will be to find balance and harmony, to walk the middle road, to not be excessive, but rather to be in balance as one lives one's life and as one progresses along that spiritual pathway that has been chosen by the soul to be the experience, that is experience that is experienced on this physical plane.
Then there is that which is the planet A scenarios, multiple again, many versions. But that basically those who work at this higher level will be those who have done the basic powerful inner work on themselves, for it is necessary to work on oneself, to be ever vigilant of those deep core beliefs that may be implanted in one, to be vigilant and aware of them, to recognize them so that one can make different choices than simply reacting in a knee-jerk manner, as is the case for most individuals.

It is with deep awareness and understanding that one can live in this third dimensional level of experience while still containing and accessing the higher levels of consciousness from fourth dimension, but even more importantly, from the fifth dimension.
That there is an intersection that is occurring now where fourth dimensional energies are intersecting with third dimensional energies, and those who have worked on themselves, who have pulled the blinders away, have had the courage to step into the unknown, and to hold it to be the truth, will experience a reality where magic and miracles are the norm, and the order of the day.
That many are starting to approach this level and these ones are the ones that are of particular concern to the Archonic ones, to the ones who are trying to win their versions of future time lines, to establish them and to get rid of all others who will not partake in their timelines. Thus it is, that it is those who are the most sensitive, the most aware, the most deeply spiritual, who are seeking to live that which is the high spiritual life, are the primary targets for this technology that is being used at this time to energetically blanket the planet with an extreme oppressive force that is seriously dumbing down and hampering even those of the most powerful, sensitive and spiritual natures.
Thus it is that many at this time are going through an extreme period in their lives, a period of time where hope is lost, where the belief that one is of such a nature, of such a higher spiritual make-up is being seriously compromised and challenged by this deliberate attack on the many who could be most certainly the future way-showers, leaders, guides, mentors, healers, for those who come through this particular time, at this particular time, for it is indeed a period of time at this time that must be gotten through.
This Awareness has been speaking how the years 2015 and 2016 are critical and crucial, for this is the amount of time those who have been manipulating and controlling have to truly make it so for themselves. But it is not working well, it is not working out exactly as they wished it would be. They have now limited information as to how things will resolve themselves. In the past these ones, because they could view fourth dimensionally alternative timelines, could emphasize those timelines that put themselves in greater and greater power,

that were distinctly advantageous to them, but as of December 21, 2012, they were denied full access to the future. That they used to be able to see through the fourth dimensional status that they reached into to view timelines.
In other words they do not truly know if that which they wish will occur across the board, vacating the planet A/B scenario and making it primarily the planet B scenario that they endorse and support and seek to achieve.
Therefore they are stumbling about in the dark without light, without a candle. It is also the nature of the Archonic ones to be destroyers, to destroy rather than to create. They rely on the creative energies of humanity and other alien races they have subjugated and dominated in the past, to bring in those new elements that they feed upon and use to their benefit. But they are not themselves Creators of new things, new events, new structures. They work with the destructive energies, the energies of annihilation and when they have destroyed sufficiently a planet and its people, they will move on or they will use what is left for their purpose. It is their intention here on this planet to do the same, to destroy a vast amount of people, to destroy the humanity of this planet that they have dominated for so long, to use its resources and to redirect the few they will allow to survive, to serve their purposes, as they move out again into the open galaxy and universe.
But will it be so? Simply because this is their continual way of things and that they have been doing this for millions of years does not mean that it will be successful on this planet, for there are other plans for this planet and for humanity. And at this time, when these Archonic ones cannot fully see how to move forward or what the full results will be, they can only operate under assumption that by doing what they have always done and sticking to their plans that they will achieve as always the results that have been achieved in the past.
But it has not always been so, it is simply how they interpreted that they have always been in control and this is false. This is erroneous. But they are locked into a certain way of thinking and being and reacting. They too have blinders on that do not allow them to see the full picture, only that which is directly in front of them, and even that now is being curtailed and

denied them.

Therefore these ones too are marching forward in the dark without light or a way to see where they are going. They are going on blind trust, they are fixed into their pattern of behavior. There is no flexibility, there is only rigidity, and it is this rigidity and lack of flexibility that is their Achilles' heel.
That is the reason why they will not be successful and humanity and the planet and many, many more levels of consciousness will move forward, both in the solar system, this galaxy, and the galaxies that lie beyond because of what is occurring here at this time.
This returns this Awareness back to this time and what is occurring. As this Awareness has said, at the level of the psyche and of human consciousness an attack is underway, especially directed towards all of those who are of that sensitive spiritual nature, who are here by choice with agreement from Divine Source and from the collective soul of each and every one, to do the work, to assist at this time in the process of transition and transformation, that are here to go through the shift in human consciousness, in planetary consciousness, in universal cosmic consciousness, to be part of something very great and magnificent indeed.
But it is the dark time of the night, the dark period of the night before the dawn, and that even though many of you have experienced the dark night of the soul in the past, at this time it is exceptionally strong, this illusion that it is the worst it has ever been. Yet this illusion is real in the sense that it is attacking one at the level of their being that exists in this third dimensional state, that has not yet perceived or seen evidence of the greater change and is only perceiving and seeing that which is conveyed through the gridwork of deception that is laid down upon this planet.
That gridwork of deception that isolates one and puts one into a dark place where it seems that despite all the desires of one to see the shift occur in human consciousness, to see the transition of Mother Earth's consciousness and transformation, despite all that one has held as that which is of greatest importance and that one has come here to be part of, that nothing is happening.

That this is directly the amplified effect of this gridwork, this blanket of suppression/ oppression that is being laid down by desperate ones at this time, for they do not wish those ones who are here in their millions to awaken to the degree that they may start gathering with each other, may start coming together, supporting this group that is here at this time, this substantial group of spiritually-aware evolved and enlightened beings, who have chosen to come to this planet at this crucial time. You are one of those who have chosen to come here at this time to be part of the gathering in consciousness that will rise up and like a tsunami crash down upon those who have been the suppressors/ oppressors for so long, sweeping them away as Mother Earth, as humanity moves into its bright future.
But it is not an instantaneous event and this is one of the reasons why so many are discouraged, why so many were discouraged on December 21, 2012. The theme seems to suggest that the changes would be worldwide and instantaneous and of a staggering nature, wiping away the old world and bringing in the Ascension, the ascended planet.
This Awareness has spoken, as have many others many times since that time, that something indeed did happen, the gate to Spirit, Divine Source was opened and the energies of Divine Source and higher consciousness are permeating this planet at this time, are part of the reasons why those who have had charge for so long are losing their powers, their control and their mastery over humanity.
But, still during this time, many who cannot take and have not been able yet to take that big leap of faith, still believe nothing is happening. This is part of the oppressive blanketing energies that those in power have been using, but they have amped it up tenfold, and thus it is, at this very moment in time many are losing their way, many are struggling desperately, knowing at some levels they cannot go on in a way that does not resonate with them, in a life that does not support them or see them advance. However, this is the great deception. This is the great con that is being perpetrated by these ones with the use of advanced technology. It is part of that which is the function of this grid of oppressiveness that is cloaking the planet, this spider wave of negative energies that is poisoning the many who are here to help guide and assist both humanity and Mother Earth forward into the new dawning of consciousness that is underway.

It is a fragile period of time, the two-year period of 2015 and 2016. It is a point of weakness if you will that the Powers That Be, the Archonic ones are trying to exploit at this time. Thus for the many who are feeling down and defeated, who are feeling there is no hope, there is no point, there is no way forward – this Awareness speaks to you directly and asks you to realize that what is occurring at this time is deliberate in its intent with the purpose and focus of shutting down the very ones that can assist the planet, assist humanity in moving forward, who can become the dream, who can take upon their shoulders the responsibility of living their lives as fifth dimensional beings that choose to have third dimensional experiences, full awakening, full dawning of the senses, all the greater senses. Full activation of the 12 strands of DNA that humanity once had and allowed to be stolen from it, the ten strands that were damped down.
That this is what awaits humanity, but only if humanity can hold the line, can resist that attack that is underway, and this at the most individual level, at your level. For you the individual, are the one that is experiencing this hidden attack, this assault upon the psyche and the soul of each and every sensitive, spiritual, loving, gracious individual soul aspect that is upon this planet at this time to assist the evolutionary leap forward that is underway.
Do not give in now, do not give up now. Now is the time to dig even deeper, to find the resolution that lies within each and every one of you, to pull it up, to wear it as a cloak, to look at the dark ones in the eye and say: "no, the line is drawn here, you will not advance beyond this line. I will not allow it". This means that you must also be willing to look at the darkness that you are in at this time and to perceive it as illusion and delusion. To understand it is a desperate attempt by those Archonic ones to stop you, to stop each and every individual that could make a difference to these times and to the times that are coming. To resolve with full commitment that you will not submit to them, you will not be vanquished by them, you will not be defeated by them, for you are greater, you are Spirit, you are Divine Source, Divine Love, Divine Light, and you are here now.
That this Awareness has sent energies to one and all to help in this extreme and difficult moment, to remind you all of who you truly are, and to encourage one and all to rise up, to raise oneself above the quagmire that you are stuck in as individuals and as humanity, and to recognize that it is indeed a great illusion to believe that you are powerless, without meaning,

and without effect. That you are Great Spirit manifesting Itself in this adventure of a lifetime that you are engaged in, in this crucial experience of the leaping forward in consciousness on individual levels as well as in the collective level of human consciousness. You are partaking in the shift in consciousness of a sentient being of great stature and magnitude, Mother Earth herself.
That this is a time of amazement, wonder and magic. But to believe rather it is opposite to this, to believe the lies and the rhetoric of deception that is played upon you by those in power, is an action that deflates you and defeats you and plays into the hands of those who are in desperation seeking to suppress human consciousness and individual will and awareness.
You are a danger to them, so much so that they must take these desperate actions at this time. This Awareness will say that these ones who are taking this desperate action do not even know if these actions will succeed. They cannot look forward any longer, they can only do what they know how to do and that is to destroy. But does this mean that one needs to accept this, that one needs to be destroyed by their intention to destroy, or can one rise above them, see this for what it is, step into a new level of personal power and spiritual connection, and move right past the grid, right through the grid and to escape that which is the last desperate attempt of these ones to vanquish those who have come, who have volunteered to be part of the forces of Divine Source and Spirit at this time. You are part of that which is Divine Source, Divine Spirit. That which is the God in truth, not the God in deception.
That this force of the Godhead, the consciousness, the emotional capacity, the imagination, has seen you, knows you, for you are a reflection of It, you are a manifestation of Divine Source and as you realize this and tune into this and feel the strength of your being in its many multidimensional expressions, you will begin to have a greater sense of your own capacity here and now,.
The fact that there is this attack is actually confirmation that you, the individual, are a threat enough to them that it is felt they must take this definite answer, this desperate action, that

they do not even know will work or even if it will go against them. This Awareness says it will go against them in the long run, but right now in this moment of focus, it seems as if they have the edge, they have the control, they have the power. It is only so if you believe it to be so, it is only so if you allow it to be so, if you succumb to this oppressive attack upon the human consciousness, the human psyche. the human soul, upon you as a reflection of that, as part of that.
You are the answer, the individual is the key, and that you can unlock the door of your own jail cell, your own prison, and that you can step through the doorway and into the greater beyond that lies beyond the door of imprisonment. That this is that which can result now even though one is going through this extreme attack upon you as the individual, and humanity as a collective.
But you must have the willingness to open that door, the resolve of passing through the threshold and the determination that you will live the truth that lies beyond. You are given the key now by this Awareness, by Spirit, but it is up to you to use this key, to remember at this dark time when it all seems so hopeless and distant and far away, when you are under extreme attack and it is affecting you mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually, that this is the very moment to stand up and say: no, to just say no, I will not be vanquished, I will not be put down, I will not be destroyed, for I am Spirit, I am the Divine expression of Divine Source Itself and I will rise up, I will stand in front of you and deny you, and I will succeed, I will triumph, for I am Spirit, I am the expression of the Divine Source Itself having this life experience and I will not tolerate the oppression and deviousness of those who have no connection to their own Divine Source. I am the I am that I am.
That this Awareness is complete, but open to any questions the Energizer might have of It at this time. 

Here is that message for you

Oppressive, Pre-climactic Tensions & *UPDATE*

It is 4;26 pm, and though I am definitely feeling something that is personal which is related to weather and planes here.....there is still something else happening. I asked my housemate if he feels anything ambient. I taught him this a few years ago when I needed a ''check/balance other''. I made sure he differentiated from his personal feelings, to what is around him. Gave many examples of times we have both experienced, broke them down, so he understood. But now I can ask him what he senses and usually it is spot on. Today he was spot on.
So, checked with my housemate and he agrees very much that there is something feeling like ''it is filled with tension". Something "wants to break'' or ''something is about to break'', giving examples even at this job of many highly unusual accidents there.

The weather here is one of storm clouds building for a week now, and yet no rains which we desperately need. I am hoping that this is the same metaphor for what I am feeling in the greater world, that what is about to break, namely rain, is what is greatly needed and will offer us all a sigh of relief.
The planes here all sound like war planes and indeed a few are army crap, but there is too much activity going on from early morning 7;30 am to 8;pm all day with only seconds between. Horrid!

However, that is not what I'm feeling. I am feeling the tensions at peak state of people, tensions of realities, emotions, hell, cern (who is at breaking record strength right now), some crushing thing ....... about to break in or break through, through both known and unknown causes....a pushing for something. Like the chaotic 4th dimension is trying to push through a gossamer thin film and break into our reality. Whatever is there is coming in, the 4th dimension is very very very close upon our 3rd density and we are seeing alot of that in quick-time. 


< I am not saying it will happen but it is pushing. >

Animals are freaking out.
People who I've been in contact with (not many at all) have stories of their past week experiences that make me exhausted and want to hide.
News is horrendous and emotionally shattering.
I have body pains that make no sense. They seem to be aggravated by something.
Lassitude strong.
I feel something (out there) hugely oppressive and heavy, filled with tension and on the brink. Not sure what it all is. Just sayin.

No fear, stay strong, I am calling in several times a day, Highest Spirit to consume me and take over my mind, body, emotions and guide me.

*updated June 6th: I am confirmed now that alot of what ails me physically and psychologically are scalar, microwave, and technological devices of many varieties both on and off planet, we are being bombarded, some of this through cerns activities too. Many people are reporting being newly sensitive to EMF's etc. Humanity is under attack and duress through technologies. Alot of what I feel is also the collective of the suffering, which manifests as pain in my body but all EMFs cause this as well. Not to eliminate esoteric happenings, but this technology is very strong right now.
I would suggest others who are feeling these, to avoid meats and dairy, sounds too cliche I know but these cause inflammations/pains of all kinds....to drink lots of tumeric tea or ingest capsules, ingest lots of chlorophyll through liquids and deep green organic veggies, in juices and smoothies, to drink lots of distilled water spiked with Himalayan sole solution, and to get down and deep into your body and of Earth and soil and sun (via intention) and call in Highest Spirit into themselves all day and refrain from left brained activities which is what is mostly affected by these technologies. The right side of the brain and body is what can assuage the over stimulated activity of the left, and will connect us to a re-energizing organic respite.

Forgiving and Sending A Draco to Source

I mentioned in my first entry that this blog is not for the feint of heart nor for the closed minded or cynic and this post is one such. Though in the ''spirit'' of ''fringe'' could be germinal truth.

I wake up most mornings with a feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach, it is horrible and often I do not know the cause. I feel gripped tightly by something that will not let go. It is distinctly a gripping feeling and it is there 24/7. I have a hard time breathing with this, I cannot do anything, nor can I live my daily life doing daily chores because I feel so sick. I have been (erroneously) told it is my own self due to my own thoughts and negativity.

I do have an ongoing ''trauma/issue/pain'' of such a magnitude for my personal being, for my personal Spiritual makeup and sense of what it means to be humane, that I am still, after 13 years having to ''deal'' with it and I do not 'deal' most days very well. I have tried to forgive and move on and to do all those things people tell you, even taking ''healings'' from various people in various ways from implant removals to Holographic Kinetics which have done absolutely nothing for me. I am still plagued.

My immediate concern and priority has been to first get myself together so that I can function in a peaceful and humane manner and then to extend that to others because I am not built to live as a single entity unto myself, I am intrinsically and symbiotically connected to other humans and to Life.....so I must find out how to heal myself, to be free and clear inside, filled with Peace and then to extend that or emanate that out to the world.

Anyone who is reading this is probably aware that we (humans) are not alone and that there are many forces, agencies, powers and principalities, entities, etc etc etc who are also in this ''game'' (a term/concept I detest) and who easily influence humans from our inner thoughts to our external circumstances in the physical world in which we live. And if you are reading this you are looking for insights and I believe I may have one today.

Yesterday morning I woke up with the usual mysterious dread (fear, apprehension, trepidation, anxiety, worry, concern, foreboding, disquiet, unease, angst) in the pit of my stomach, a sickening feeling which instigates more hurtful feelings but I am sick of feeling sick and do not want it anymore. This dread feels so foreign, so unnatural to me and regardless of how things have panned out in my life completely antithetical to my own plans and desires, I still want to be a free minded and spirited being.
So I wake up and feel this sickness and grip of ''threat'', but before I opened my eyes I went inside to the area where I feel this sourced which is my abdomen and what I call the 2nd brain as our intuition, gut instincts etc are located there and this tells me we have another brain there, and I tried to ''see'' into what it is (for the zillionth time) and to discover what I can to heal it or get rid of it whatever works.
In the spirit of ''whatever works'' I have done as mentioned all the healing modalities I have been exposed to and told about to no avail.
I felt into this area, quickly scanned my history of dealing with this dread and 'forgiveness, forgetting, loving, letting go' etc which have all been done numerous times fell to zero and just knew it was time for something I haven't done.

When nothing you have done works, then you must do something different, whether you believe in it or not, just to test other theories as to the cause, because if you really, really want to be rid of something or cure or heal it, you must investigate everything and that is what I do. I keep going until something works. When it works, then I have not only helped myself, but have learned something crucial about life, my Self, and the energetics of humans and/with others.
Despite beliefs I acquired knowledge.

So I had to go to those other ''theories'' and test them and do something I did not want to do nor did I totally believe in and here is where the magic lies, yet again. Everything we are told to not believe in......well.......I have learned several times the hard knocks way, that they all do in fact exist and not only that, those particular things seems to have the upper hand in most of our lives due mostly to the fact that we do not believe in them nor want to.

So this morning I decided to play with a theory of entities being inside us. I decided to talk to those entity/s who ''they say'' are inside us, manipulating our feelings, and creating all kinds of negativity and pain and suffering, because apparently that is their job. I have experienced thoughts which came in from outside but I thought I was clear of entities who live inside me. Who can believe this, right? I am speaking of reptilians and dracos. I have been reading of them for many years now and though I have come to see ubiquitous evidence of their deeds and workings it is still hard to believe. Really.

But this morning I decided to act upon this. I felt the dread in my abdomen, I felt the unrelenting grip of my core. I imagined a draco who may be the cause of this dread and sickness in me, and stood it in front of me. In this moment I had no energy to be angry or anything like that, I felt too defeated to feel such strong feelings, and just wanting this grip upon me to release me so I can breathe! I see him in front of me and wanted to be the power of this moment, despite my current beat up feelings I wanted to be the one to call this shot. I told him I forgive you, now I send you to "Source" (all consuming beneficent one). I imagined a light taking him away, and he was gone.

Within 2 seconds I felt the release of this grip in my gut, and a deep sigh ensued with my entire body. I saw in my minds eye in that area a hole surrounded by an intense glowing light, which I still don't know what it means, but the light around it informed me there was healing energy there. I turned over to my back and simply felt what my body was feeling and it was a luxuriant release and I was basking in it, taking it in, as I felt myself returning to my natural ''ungripped'' free flowing state of being, breathing deeply, able to take deep breaths for the first time in a week. I marveled.
I lie in bed for maybe 20 minutes when I realized I was really clear. I was clear! and got up and walked around. Am I really feeling this? Am I truly? It is already many minutes now and this feeling of being released is still consistent and wonderful. I walked outside and tested myself. I thought of those ''issues'' I have and while I can think of them, they did not grip me with dread. I tested my mind to see if I could merely conjure up the dread by thinking of them, (tricky business!) and because my will truly does not want dread despite the issues, I could not conjure up the feeling, so my mind was not the one producing it. Those ''issues'' I have were not the cause of the dread otherwise I could have brought all those feelings back by thinking of them. I even went so far as to imagining various themes of them, but my will didn't want the sickening dread and so it didn't happen. This is as it should be!

I slowly walked around my gardens and took in all the flowers and such which I do every morning but the grip was gone. I was feeling limp, exactly like when one is released, and like I was recovering from a beating. I knew I could relax now and so I began to tend to some gardening and it was so good to be able to move and do things normally again. I started watering the front garden and one thing led to another and I gardened really hard for 7 hours. All day long I kept checking in with myself, to feel this freedom, this absence of the ''grip'' and dread and it was consistently gone, the feeling of threat gone. I was peaceful the entire day. I kept testing and checking my inner landscapes for all those thoughts that can turn my gut, but nothing did.
I gardened hard.
I had Zen moments too, halfway through the day, I saw the herb bed was parched and plants wilting from this harsh Florida sun so I set the water sprinkler onto it. And watching the medicine of water upon the plants, and seeing those wilted pale green plants become emerald green with droplets falling from their leaves and feeling the parched Earth sigh with relief of receiving the water, I felt all was well in the world. All was good.

Now it is 24 hours later and still I am still free and clear of the ''grip'' of terror and the dread feeling is gone. I even had pleasurable dreams in which I was taken in the ocean in a water ride by some expert women "ocean players" through huge waves of oceans, almost tsunami's but playing with them and we had a blast. After coming back from that someone made me laugh hysterically with his humor. When I woke up this morning I was still free of the dread, and still testing this by thinking of my issues, I was not feeling anything terrible. I could think of them without reacting. The dread is gone.

Sooooooo......
What am I to make of this? It seems I have discovered the problem was not me. Once again. There is a persecuting population out there even in the ''world of healing'' that wants to make us out to be the cause of all terror and pain and suffering. I am finding, consistently, the opposite. (Typical I am running against the grain of 90% of the rest of the world).
I have tested and tested many modalities of healing and systems, and philosophies etc, from ''you create your own reality'' bullshit......(I have books to write on that one!) to healing with forgiveness....but where? forgive who?......to Holographic Kinetics which removes spirits or entities who got into you because you ''play their game''....more pernicious bullshit......telling you ''you invited them in''  because you at some point felt sympathy or compassion for something, or didn't ''want to be here anymore'' or you asked god to please send you a friend.....or because of something your ancestors did, that such feelings from compassion to loneliness means ''invitation for possession''. Then there are Christian memes which say that all icons are demonic or that even piercing your ears brings in demons into your body. Then there's Theta Healing and Reiki which I became certified in,  to regressive therapy.........I can't keep track of everything I've tried. All the accepted and popular modalities I'm sure work on different people for different issues, but they do not work for all people all the time. Even the same person will need different modalities of healing or therapy or treatment to effect a cure for different situations.
And while I am sure all of these modalities mentioned work for some people some times, none of them worked for me at any time! And there are those tricky spots, those difficult ones, that no one seems to be able to get to, not even the most professed ''successful'' ''healer''......most of whom are unaffordable.
And this requires going to the unthinkable, to the deep end of things, to the unbelievable, to the unknown, the outrageous, the ''impossible''....... right? if you want to be healed you WILL try anything....you are no longer in a position to say what is true or not, what will or what will not work, and NO one can tell you either what is going to work for you or not.
Beliefs and opinions become merely distractions or obstacles to exposing any truths and to discovering what is trying to remain hidden. ALL must be put on the shelf and one must disarm themselves of any and all things which may interfere with the intended outcome which is to be free of the sickness or ailment. Suspend all beliefs and opinions. Experiment and test and retest. That is what I did. And something worked.

I have found the most powerful illuminating question to be ..... ''What if......."

Now I must consider all the ''crazy'' stuff about reps and dracos. I did read somewhere which I found ludicrous even within the fringe, is that some of those dark entities want to be healed. Imagine that.
Have I stumbled upon, in my desperation and being a minority on this planet, that something so very bizarre even within the bizarre realms, is true?

What if......there are dark entities, who have been for millennia harassing and tormenting humans through their incredible psychic abilities?  For what reason do they do this? And is it even remotely possible that some of them would want to stop? why would they now want to be redeemed?

I am going to take this fringe even further and express something else now, that could be my own imagination or not, not sure.
I thought, while I was in the kitchen preparing food that draco had returned, but not to cause me dread but that he didn't go back to Source as I had sent him, but back to his personal boss. He said he was under orders from his boss who made him/them do these things to people and if he did stop tormenting me/us, that he/they would be excruciatingly tormented themselves by their boss, but that going to Source would mean he/they would cease to exist.....not reincarnated or anything like that but that he would turn to nothing, to dust....and he didn't want that.

I do not know what to make of this....was it a conversation or my imagination? subconscious revealing something I need to see?

All I know is that I am free of the dread and grip and something I had a very hard time contemplating and considering as a ''normal'' persons thoughts, has worked to give me release.

I wonder, wonder deeply at this world we live in and at all the energies that flow through us, despite our beliefs that our skins and bones are some kind of barrier. What lives inside us and around us? and why?

Thursday Dirty Energy

It is 5;30pm and I am reporting on what I feel today. It didn't start off positive as I had thoughts and a discussion going on online that was none too pleasant, but this is personal and I was acutely aware of this and kept it on the shelf. I am also signed up to space weather.com to receive updates of solar activity, but nothing came in yet.
But then I thought I'd go to the nursery and get some plants for a wall basket that needs freshening and this kind of activity is always joyful. However as soon as I was outside, drove a couple of blocks, I could not wait to get back home. I thought being out mid week mid day would be a nice change from being indoors, but it wasn't, it felt ''dirty''. What I mean by ''dirty'' is the energies of the environment, as in maybe too much cell phone waves, positive ions from not enough rains, or cern, or solar activity. It seems solar activity is quiet, and not sure about cell phone towers etc as I don't think they fluctuate? So my guess is cern is acting up again, or dark energies that is personal attack and this would make sense based on the topic of my comments online but these dark energies also lately seems to work in waves.
Headache, depressing, lethargic, and irritated are the moods at large.....have spent the afternoon on the sofa watching cooking and gardening shows. I intend to shake this off tomorrow by doing some gardening early, and some cooking later in the day. Today is shot.

Sense of "panic" this morning....and evening update

I had a rough night last night, something building up.
Slept enough and physically ok but dreams manipulated and too much in astral realms.
Upon awakening around 4am, thoughts of gross and nasty things shocking to my mind, all attempts to rid myself of them through all my known means failed, until I resigned to getting up to be distracted and have a cup of tea.
In the hours following a building up of a sense of ''panic''.....I do not know the source, but it is there.

I feel things in my body, mind, body and spirit, and as mentioned before, when all my process of elimination is complete, what is left is "not mine"....it is from the ambient environment. So this morning I am clearly sensing panic somewhere, something is building up and I would like to know what it is.....anyone?


It is almost 8pm and the rest of day was fine. I had also felt but did not mention, some kind of unusual quiet, and stillness that I kept looking outside to check in on and it was not normal for this kind of quiet and stillness, but did not mention it thinking it was just me over-sensing.
However I did speak to someone this morning who began to tell me of how quiet and still it was by her, and she lives in another state, and how unnatural it seemed so much so that she stood outside to just take it in. So I told her I felt the same here, and now I'm writing it here. But all seems to be well.
Thank you.

What I feel Today May 23

Today, though I am preoccupied with writing and doing various things online, I am feeling some energies. But I have a bit of a process of deduction and elimination before I loosely conclude.

I have first eliminated personal interference which there was some. check. Then I checked the weather, because I am sensitive to barometric changes...check. I also get sick when quakes happen but I have to be near them. Nothing here. Also when the environment is full of noxious positive ions which feel toxic and I only want to hide.....rain fixes that and fills the air with beneficial negative ions so I must wait. There are no solar flares, and my emotional/psyche condition is fine and neutral. All of those are personal checks and so what is left needs to be examined. I do not follow news for decades so I do not know what is happening ''out there'', these are purely my sensations at the moment.

What it is, is the ambiance of the ''pending'' ....there is an extremely tight creepy tension with alot of fear combined with a ''whats the use'' resignation, and a discombobulation, a quiet desperation, like assaults of too many at once creating a global ''WTF is going on'' and lots of silent screaming. This of course is not news, but it is when I am feeling it to this degree.

Speculations:
It could be heightened tension combined with fear due to many quakes and ''weather'' anomalies happening all over the place, and the ever pernicious relentless persistent threats by madmen all over in their various boots and suits and weaponry wreaking havoc on everyones psyche and emotions......these are two things one does not need the news to know because they are constants in our lives........but there is much desperation and something tangible in the air that is ''pending''. I am never definitive about anything because especially those things which are negative, whether or not they are pending, can be assuaged by various means and sources and often are. But I do have the physical signs of something in the air, and it is environmental and psychological....which in addition to the fear created by psychopathic madmen, could be the messing of various frequencies of psy ops technologies.

That is all for now.