They Didn't Count On Us....

......and that is their downfall.

Literally their downfall. :D


They tried to make us forget who we are, to forget what we can do.

They traumatized us, demeaned us, chess played our lives into living hells, always in a state of 
WTF-ness, followed by the unforgiving time consuming healing time....

They connected us with Love Biters, alien hybrids, brought to us all kinds of saboteurs, human, alien and everything in between ......

Yet, being so poisoned of mind and body, our hearts never let us forget who we are......and we still remembered enough to retaliate.

They didn't count on us.......
Standing back up...
Remembering our powers...
Using them to fight back...
Using them to uncreate their nightmares and recreating our desires....
Taking them down.....
Taking them out.....



Now I know, after I've lived more than half a century of this life of hell, of unending, tenacious and Attrition Warfare tactics, exactly why they went all out.
They feared us.

We are their only threat.


Now I know why they did all this. Why they tried so often to kill me, take me down and out. Now I know why.

They know us better than we know ourselves.


They counted on us forgetting, on being so traumatized and hurt, brainfogged, brainfucked, brainwashed, drugged and chemically poisoned so we could not think, could not function. Wanting and needing only to hide from the invisible attacks, and to convalesce.


They tried and tried to crush our self love and self esteem. They inculcated all kinds of fabrications on the weakness and uselessness of "us".


But the question is, why would anyone go to all out warfare, so tenaciously with all of their manpower and backup after backup to take out something powerless and useless? Ask any general of warfare.......

Its because we're not powerless. Not only are we not powerless, but our powers are unfathomable, malleable, exponential, all encompassing, quantum, and spanning far beyond the limits of space and time, in any direction. They know this about us.

Its time we know this about us.


Its more than beyond time.


Now I know. Now I will have fun.

Lets go all out. Lets go full force with all our imaginarium and improvisational abilities, with fun, with mirth, will full force and joy !

Lets be relentless and uncompromising.



WE GOT THIS !!

Living Flatlining, Memory Loss, Lack of Creativity, Etc.

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared.
Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods
http://serenaladyofthewoods.blogspot.com/

*Edit: 12/24/2019 see below.

Hello People.....

There have been many times I've wanted to say something here, to reveal something, to give us something to contemplate etc, and I just don't do it. Something has been lost....I don't know where its gone. Mostly I just cannot seem to articulate well, and so writing has become a lost art.

As an empath, and as you readers who are also empaths, maybe you can relate and connect with me about your own experience and feelings?

Just to list some things I've "lost" or maybe, possibly what has been stolen.....are:

~creativity - I have always been an artist, always working on projects, creating things, sewing, cooking, crafting, designing, creating beauty everywhere. This year I began many projects fro macrame, to calligraphy, to cooking, to garden crafts, only to have left all those beautiful things alone, doing nothing with them even though I have alot of time. I just have no desire.

~inspiration - I have always had inspiration, to create, to move, make something beautiful every single day, to garden, ..... anything and everything.......now I can't seem to move. I look at the raw materials and sadly walk away from them.

~memory - I have forgotten way too many important things, things I want to and should remember. I can even create a wonderful new recipe for a great meal, and the next week totally forget what I did, what I put in it. I recently bought a wok for all the asian dishes I wanted to create and cannot even remember the first dish I made or what went in it and cannot do it again. I've never forgotten great recipes before. I just re-listened to an old astrology reading I got and it felt like another lifetime.

~positive outlook _ I tell myself if I'm not inspired there is always tomorrow. This always worked and the next day I'd be back to my usual busy self. Lately, tomorrows have gone into months.

~energy to do anything - I understood getting tired from being busy all the time and down time was necessary, and a day was enough to rejuvenate me. Now day after day, month after month I find myself in bed by 3pm, and the scary part is it doesn't matter if I've done anything or not.

~forcing "doing things" - I always knew how to pep talk myself back into action, talk myself into doing things, or to enliven a lax spirit. Pictures, music and other women have inspired me, but now, they don't.....nothing is working.....and days and months are going by with me doing nothing.

~healthy habits - I've always worked out, jogged and did weights, eaten organically.....now just walking is a monumental thing. And I eat for comfort, it feels like drugs. I thought that was bad, but I find I cannot do anything further than in-home.

~interest in anything including my passions - I don't know where they've all gone. I can see the beauty in my mind, or in pictures, but nothing moves me inside anymore, or if they do and I get the beauty done, it is very short lived.

~moving my body for any reason - for the first time in my life, I am sitting in a chair for hours not moving at all. This seems a miraculous feat for someone like me who was always and loved to move being busy until I drop at night satisfied at all my accomplishments. Now I cannot move nor do I want to.

~the sun is far too bright - I love seeing it outside and I love that the plants love it and I do too for short bursts, but inside I prefer now to draw the curtains and light my Himalayan salt lamps and candles only for ambient light. I can only tolerate gentle lighting.


And I learned just today that this is happening to many people, so I can stop suspecting I've been damaged beyond repair, that there is something common amongst many people.


The best term for this seems to be "Spiritual Flat-lining" ....the pulse is alive, but is faint and so weak that nothing is moving. The dark chaos is pandemic and paralyzing the Authentic Spirits on this planet, those empaths and living "souls/spirits" (those terms used vaguely as no definition seems concrete) to the point where we no longer can feel our own lifeforce......OR our Authentic Spirits/Souls have moved on and left our bodies here hence we are no longer able to feel anything that is of the divine for example, inspiration, passion, creativity, love, joy, effervescence etc. Imagination seems stagnant.
It feels like the most vital parts of ourselves have vacated or been taken away, and what is left is only biology, and the necessary functions of such.

Some animals at the moment just before being pounced on by the attacker, will play dead. Do we?

I want to postulate this on a positive note and say that maybe it is because our Authentic Selves have left to a place that is more conducive to supporting our Spirits, a benevolent and loving space, and what has been left is what is essentially useless? Maybe we are removing the parts of ourselves that have been typically for eons hijacked by the nefarious ones for dark purposes and to protect ourselves we have moved away? Maybe we have been taken to a "protective holding space" for example the Protective Spheres I created some years ago for those Real Humans who were locked into this false matrix, and in that holding space we find our bodies here (and hence life) to be pointless? Yet remain for a ruse?

 I feel deeply that Authentic Spirits cannot be "taken over" per se, and so we must have gone away. What is left here feels empty and lifeless, pointless, and the passions of creativity can not occupy a Spiritless/Soulless body.....but yet we are somewhere protecting our real selves. What remains here is just a ghost for the purpose of "ruse" or "fooling" those who still think they can hijack our souls/spirits, and there is nothing here for them anymore. Yet we remain....to keep up the facade of "their game".....so as not to instigate an all out war or to assuage the "final takeover" by any and all means by the nefarious ones.

Does this make any sense? I'm feeling this. All of it.

Also, today I received a video I want to post here as this beautiful woman expressed precisely what I am feeling.
Does this sound like any of you?

If so, what do you make of it?

Can you share?

*Edit note: It is important to note that what I'm describing is not depression. I had that before for a while and this is not it. Depression is a black state of heart and mind. It is dark and has negative thoughts and feelings, a futility that is angry or surrendered, oppressed and/or disconsolate. What I describe above is more like being in a huge void of uncharted space at the same time with the heart, mind and spirit being "on hold" or in temporary stasis. I know I'm "still here" as I've found some beautiful vloggers who vlog/film their lives and the peacefulness of home life (when one is at peace) and I enjoy those very much, so I'm very feeling still, unlike a depressed state that is not touched by  beauty.

Unexplainable Trickery *Yawn* Update 12/22/2019

Just had to post today, that I see that video is gone. I do not however agree with everything Auset has to say though. But that one particular video gave some information that was vital. Don't know why she took it out. 

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared.
Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods


Well hello everyone.

As you must have surmised, I have not been able to make regular posts at all for various reasons. Life is simply preternatural.

I have updated my last post which you can read here, update at the very top.
I was sad to have to write it, but I had to be honest since what I had written was no longer true.

As for today, I will just say a few brief things, and then post the video which is the point of this post.

I am not paying much attention at all to what is happening in the world, not even in the so called spiritual communities, nor listening much to anyone I used to because it is such an insanely complex world we live in and many have pieces that are true and too many are believing in sheer speculation and beliefs, which I abhor these days.
So I do not listen to much, just what is forwarded to me by a few friends.

My sense is, if I may offer a hint of "empathic energetics" is that it is so very complex and crazy that there is nothing being said that is not happening. Everything is happening to some degree, and in varying times, places, intensities, etc. Some of it is actually good, believe it or not.
But I can tell you one thing, what is needed, necessary and critical for future life is that everyone needs to know what is going on by the dark ones, what they are doing how and why. It must be known, this is the truest form of disclosure. It is hard and horrific, some may not want to survive knowing these things the dark lords and their servants and slaves are doing but it must be known.

It must never be forgotten.

The path to liberation and wisdom must include seeing it all.

And then there are those who I have termed "Blue Printers", the architects of creation here on this plane many of whom are not even aware that they are architects of creation and so do not create, so many are missing their calling. Some are aware and are making changes they can see. These are too few.
We need everyone lit up, knowing who they are and that they, with their will based in the integrity of the heart and soul do some spontaneous and improvisational creating on this planet to release us all. There are no rules, nothing.
Create as you will, using all your abilities at once, all the time.
Be attentive, get fancy, get wild.
Be authoritative.
Especially you women who have the strongest protective instincts for life for all still in tact, with the greatest amount of life changing justifiable rage, the kind that can shift realities in NO time.

Lately, even if I haven't seen or sensed something, after hearing it or reading it, I will eventually see it. It is as I have written before, that humans, real humans are creators, and the hijackers of this realm are using those humans to create their desired realities, and the humans don't even realize they are doing this.

There is far too much redundancy, many repeating simply what others are saying or writing. This is terribly tragic. And yet through all this some are dissing the popular installed memes of these programs and seeing into the truth, and so applaud these people.

And then there are the numerous bot (robots), or zombies, or non character players, the soulless, call them what you will, but they are empty and simply follow the directives of the insidious programs.

Then there are what is called the New Predators a term coined by Lauda Leon, which I experienced and wrote about here, here, and here . Those are 3 different posts written about my personal experiences, and in retrospect recalling others of the same ilk during my lifetime but not knowing what it was I was dealing with, and for sure not able to handle what I was truly dealing with, until now, and even now "knowing" requires alot of healing time. I plod on for some reason.

There are countless "unseens" of all variations who are also manifesting their will upon this reality often by simply taking over humans to do it.

Everyone must know who or what they are, and those Blue Printer Architects must get to creating!

That said, this is a video I would like to share because it is entirely on point. Some of what she speaks of, for example her devices manifesting where she had not placed them, happens to me often. She thought of it as a test. I think of it as more f**kery. Once someone has seen through the program/matrix and reports it, "they" begin to harass. "They" want us to know "they" are manipulating our reality, and that "they" are listening" to us, those who know "they" do exist and expose them. "Trickery" and "f*&kery" commences. It can be considered intimidation, but some of us are not intimidated, and I am proud of this. I have also had the same type of space craft dreams she speaks of, literally thousands of times over 3 decades.

Here is the video, if you listen, please share your thoughts, experiences with this.

Energetics AND Something is Different Lately, Very Very Different - I moved out of the Matrix *updated 10/2019

I have to put in an update here because as I read this post, sadly, I must share that this positive energetic change ended rather quickly and has reverted back to its old crap just 3 months after moving here in May 2018, which means the positive left by August 2018. Someone wrote and asked me if the changes were still positive and I shared that they were not. What changed it back? Well, I would have to say, with a great deal of thought, study, testing, retesting and observance, it was john. For 18 years living with him in the older house, and now again, he was only different for the 3 months of getting me out of TN and moving me here to Gainesville, and then he reverted back to his old slothful and negligent zombie like character which was the norm for 18 years. So the question now is, what possessed him for those 3 months to make all those positive changes? Why did it leave? When I queried him about this he also saw that he was back to his old self which he said he buried in the old house....but he doesn't know why he returned. I say it was because his old self never left, but something new, positive and fresh and caring took me out of a life/death scenario, and then left john again to his old self. John asked me how to get that positive john back, and my jaw hit the floor, and I told him "it is not for me to do that, it is for you to want that john back and to do whatever you did before to get him". But since that has not happened, my belief at this point is john was "taken over", for 3 months to make changes, then left. A sorry sorry thing for sure. October 2019.  So what I saw as positive changes for others, not just myself, was not the case. I was wrong, sorry to be wrong and am apologizing for such a perception. But joy sure did make me feel all kaleidoscopic for time.....I was a fool......but it was an illusion, a thoroughly complete illusion.

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared. Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods http://serenaladyofthewoods.blogspot.com/

First I want to say that I will be posting differently from now on. I tend to make long ones, when I really want to keep them short. So I am going to try to post short energetics again. Thanks to those who read my little empathic blog. This first section is on Empathic Energetics as I sense/live them and then more on my personal journey for those interested. And I would love your feedback. <3


Empathic Energetics: 

The "something", the "Earth changes" heart/soul based humans have been waiting for is upon us. I cannot be the only one experiencing this. I am sure of it. The Universe I/we are in now is far friendlier now, and supportive of my endeavors as grand or domestic as they may be, and things are actually FLOWING now. There is ease. There is what one can only refer to as something "right".

Anyone who doesn't believe huge dimensional changes are happening must look deeper, make radical moves, or look more closely, or do something out of character, or a list of many other things, but IT is happening and can be made to happen. One must not only negate the old world, but also create the new you want to live in. That creating part is only for you to do and no one else.

I am feeling the world now, that I have had in my heart for ages. I committed to living only how I want to live (as much as possible in 3-D).
That there is now a safe space also for others to do so. While it was locked down before, the prison net has broken, and new realities can be made. Must be made otherwise, the old still lives on.

I have deliberately and intentionally renounced the crazy patriarchal wasteland that is the 3-D matrix filled with soulless beings, to spend all the rest of my own time, energies and imagination creating a world of my own. I needed to do this while I lived. It can be done. There is something critical about this part.....a deliberate all consuming creating of ones own world out of the real energies of love. This is not for my own life I must stress, but that some blueprint of potentiality is forged into reality when one does this with ones entire being, that makes it possible for others. The vanguard, so to speak?

This can happen for others who do the same. A complete break has to be made, with ones entire being. Nothing less. Only engage as much as what keeps one safe from all bureaucratic complications, otherwise, create your own world.

I am also deliberately abstaining from reading, or doing anything involving the "old world", for me it is gone.
Empathically......I feel the New Worlds upon us not just because I sense it, but because I am living it. At first I thought it was just the result of a huge sense of relief. No, its far more than that.
It was rather sudden too. Interesting that one quote that has always sung to me was "in the twinkling of an eye".......yes, it can be like that.
But it is imperative that those New Worlds are created by your own hearts and imaginations.
May I suggest you all who want your own world begin to create it with everything you have in you. Even if you think you don't have the energy, I certainly didn't, but it can be done. Somehow.
Find others who you resonate with and can live in peace with and partner up. Find ways.

I believe in feeling into the new "realities" as such, because there are many now, that they need to be filled in, or are a blank canvas so to speak, that need the artistry of the imaginal realms of those who are creators with heart and soul. This requires action and absolute intention. Go forthe and create.
 ~ end empathic energetics.


This part below is more on my own personal journey and evidence of the New Realities:

I've been wanting to write this for weeks. I just didn't know if it would last.

There is something very very different in my life.
One could say, I got out of a toxic place and energetics, and I would say emphatically, yes.
But its much more than that.

One could say country life is different, and that space of lots of green, trees and grass, real Earth beneath ones feet, with fewer people would create more peace and I would say yes again. Its that too.

One could say alot, but what I'm saying is that it is all of that and more > More what I call "natural" forces of life, which are magical in the always positive sense. What I know to be my Truth.

There are a crazy number of synchronicities happening, and synchronicities are wonderful events happening in the physical world that tell you the Universe and You and now (re)-United.
These synches or serendipities which is a more fun word, are happening almost every day. I cannot even count how many dozens have happened since I made the move out of TN and back into Florida Country. It literally began when John arrived and helped so much (out of character :-) me pack so we could drive out the next day. But the synchs are happening for both of us independently. For example, he needed that job in Gainesville, and was immediately hired, interviewed only by phone and got the job on the spot. Unlike previous protocols. And Gainesville is where I had said I wished we could move to years prior when I helped someone move here. Synch.
More mundane examples are, I want a specific rare plant and he finds it in a store the next day.
It happened again the other day, when we went out shopping on his day off, and I wanted to check the garden center store to see anything new....(I'm a huge plant/nature person) and my favorite plant is Maidenhair Fern......delicate, lacy, whimsical plants that love water and shade and whose spiritual meaning I just learned is Beauty and Love. So there.

So we arrived at the store and there, in a box were a bunch of maidenhair ferns, just arrived, not even priced yet.
The same happened with our trees. He and I both wanted Italian Cypress trees and had always seen them in stores but they were very small, dried up and too expensive on top of that. Once here, we found tall ones, very green, healthy, maybe 13 feet tall, taller than our house, and the price was right, and we had them delivered. The same with the 3-ball topiaries. The same with a shallow bowl I spent 2 hours searching for online 2 nights ago, and when we went to H.D. the other day, there they were in terracotta, not plastic, the right size, color and the price was almost thrift store priced compared to what I'd seen online that I liked. They were not there just days ago. This keeps happening with all kinds of little mundane things. Nice!

2 days ago I had a lovely emotion filled dream of almost being able to have a cat again. I love to have the cat choose me, for those who understand that, but since 2010 none have come though I have tried out a few. This dream was magical in the sense that there was a woman who had 2 kittens, black, both male and they were looking for a home. I was interested but wanting to see if the cats wanted me too. There was a man there who also wanted the kittens. The woman watched and listened to us both. The man was talking more, I was feeling more.....for the cats. The cats remained neutral....though aware that both the man and I could potentially be their new parents. The man seemed to have won out, he was more vocal, aggressive in his desires and commenting on their traits, while I remained receptive. I had fallen in love with them, and finally I fell to my knees in front of the woman, with my expression being one hopeless in love and nothing else to say. The woman however made the decision. She awarded me the cats, and I was shocked because the man clearly claimed them, but she said, "this was not about favoritism, but about love". So she awarded them to me. I felt so mushy grateful.
The next day, when we checked the garden store for new arrivals of plants, I found my maidenhair ferns in a box, yet unpacked as mentioned,! And with this in hand a lovely young calico cat meandered right to my feet and I remembered my dream of the previous night. I was so happy to be petting the furry thing who was loving the affection. The woman who worked there said there were two male kittens there in the store looking for a home. And John said I'd better hurry since a man there was also interested in the cats. It was my dream, in a sense. He had already claimed them. (deja vu) But he could have them. I wanted female cats, they are not territorial and don't spray and stink. The woman told me she had younger females at her home and they too were looking for a home. I may have a lovely furry love in my home any day now. She just called John :D.
It keeps happening. Almost every day.

I can fix something that frustrates john, and what I cannot fix, he can. Its crazy. Odd that "flow" seems ''crazy" now lolol.
Its "right" to the point that this is what life should be, never was, and now is shocking and takes getting used to. Yet feels very much what life should be.

A little backtrack. Two days after leaving TN my red and pained eyes of the previous year were no longer red. John also said the swelling of my eyes went down to almost normal. I had to look in the mirror and he was right. The eye problem started when I got to TN. I thought it was the dry air. I kept trying to find 3-D explanations for this new problem. I went to the eye doctor and he found nothing.
The eyes are the windows of the soul. My soul was sick in TN. Something was making my soul sick. Something vile and evil. And I am not a wimp. I grew up in badlands of drugs, violence and poverty and became not only a warrior of my Self but a guardian of others unable to protect themselves. But that is another book.
Since leaving TN my hair stopped falling out and is shiny again. I have less pains. And there is more but I want to move on.

These changes in paradigm is not just country life. This is not just being away from toxic beings from whatever dimension they hail from. Its not just having my own space.

THIS is a totally different reality. I look out of my windows and see an Italian Mediterranean garden in its beginning stages. How can this be already? With only a few additions to this land of grass and trees?
This is a totally different reality. It literally feels like I've left that 3-D matrix system and am finally in a world of my own making. I can fall back into old "feeling patterns" but check myself right out of them again, taking note of the reality I am currently in and moving forward. There is a HUGE  difference. Its almost like it keeps telling me, "don't think back..... don't feel back...... don't fall back....be present in this fresh new space. Come on, and believe........It is clean and waiting for artistry."

The feeling is also that I am finally energetically "alone".....with my own thoughts, feelings and energies. Before, in all my previous life apparently, I've been bombarded, albeit unknowingly, with energies from all kinds of things, from other people, from other non-people, from unseens, from EMF's, from solar/lunar energies, Earth energies, etc......and it has been impossible to separate myself from all of that.
It seems now I can. I can feel my Self. I can feel only me when I check in and see what is going on. I can see now when my own thoughts are generating feelings and I can correct or change them. I can see when "weather" is not real weather but manipulated which is toxic also.
I now feel like I can be alone and this feels so good, because being with my Self is so relieving and feels so clear and clean. I can breathe, I can sigh.....with space. I can empty my thoughts when I want. I can be quiet when I want.

This is hugely different. This is not merely a move to another Earthy location, this is a move to another dimension, another reality, one that is my own, though still here in 3-D.

They said this could happen. I heard it literally hundreds of times. I spoke of it myself. I determined it my Self.......and now I am living it.

It seems that the drive from TN, with our things en route to a new home, and john and I driving in a car on the road to a new life, new location, heaven-bent on our old routines of simple joys, was the path, the orbit that took us to a different reality. He drove, Impeccably I might add, because I was so worn out, falling asleep while awake etc and not wanting to poke Murphy that beast of wrongs,.....and we drove in silence for almost 2 days.


I said in my previous post that some things are unbelievably perfect about this house, this location and this life, even though we literally picked a house out of 2 internet pictures, had the pods with our possessions sent to this location, and were driving to this as a new home before we even owned this house. Crazy, I know. But if you're not just a bit crazy you'll never be able to outpace the insanity of patriarchal systems. You need just a bit of crazy to be able to maneuver around them, to be malleable and spontaneous, and say F*&k it and move forward in ruthless ways. We did that. We had no time to think. We had to move forward. I had a only single day instead of the planned 4, to pack a container thanks to the saboteur repeatedly refusing my POD being delivered days before I had to leave, but I maneuvered and made it work because I had to be a bit crazy. And though the saboteur tried to assert its own false authority over my circumstances (the supervisor of the POD called me to find out why it was cancelled, NO I didn't cancel it! He said the owner of the house cancelled it, I had to beg him to bring it anyway, thank god my neighbors allowed it on their property and that is how I was able to have it).......So even with all this and more happening, we still managed to get out on the day we needed, to get on the long road to another dimension and another alternate reality. WE did.

I am still recovering from being so "sick" on so many levels as I was in TN.
The creation of this New Reality is more mine than his, since he does not create. He just enjoys what I create, and I have huge huge unlimited imaginal realms of knowledge and experience from my Soul where I have lived in absolute Freedom as a Creator. I am still limited here in this dimension by physicality of material things and funds, but not in my imagination and intentions. And I am still, after all these years focused on what I want to create, the beauty, the harmony, the simplicity, the Peace, the memories of wondrous magic.......and finally it seems my Universe has formed itself around my steadfast intentions and is forming itself into manifestation.


We left chaos. We left crazy. We left sabotage.
It has been consistent.

So why am I telling you this? Because I don't believe it is only me experiencing things like this, huge changes like this, not just cute stuff, but literally an alternate reality that is friendly and femininely nurturing towards our needs both physical and emotional. Its almost like we speak them in voice and they show up in physicality. That is more than just positive, that is a totally different than Earthly paradigm.

Now, to move back some years.....

I have been working on dismantling. And I mean DISMANTLING.......the perilous realities created here by psychopaths. I cannot explain how I have done this, how often, how intensely, or that every breath from my body was all about this for my entire life.....that the trillions of cells in my body lived for this and only this......as far as the first part. And once I saw the dismantling taking place, phase two was initiated by my own initiative, and no other, to create the new worlds for those beauties within the "human" species with both heart and soul. I did that too. And only in 2016/2017, did I hear from others, that what I was creating was being seen and reported by many others, and I stopped. I stopped because it was already coming in. We, the hearts and souls of Humanity are going Home.

My New Life July 2018

Helllllloooooooo People !

Its been a while, a lot of "life" happening too often, too fast and all has been too much in general, but I am here posting because some of my friends want to know what is happening, where I am living, how, pics of the new place and what I'm doing. Here now, I will tell as much as I can.....so get ready, get a large coffee or tea because I think this will be a long one and with lots of pics. I always like to be succinct but once I get to talking and no one is stopping me, I tend to get into more details, but some have asked for details......so here goes.
In fact I think I will make my self a cup of tea too....be right back....

Tea is on.....and while I wait a bit, I will say a very Happy Helllooooo to all of my friends who have asked about me and what is happening. And helloooo to all who bother to read my quirky little "Energetics" blog of an empath, I welcome and thank you for being here and even remotely interested.

I will start with a caveat that I can't tell all of my experiences as I don't want to start a war with something that would make a war out of total megalomaniac afflictions, so I use prudence, the point being to keep as much peace in my world. But I will say that nothing can be exaggerated enough to describe this....... ummm......ahem....."learning curve" shall we say? You cannot possibly know of what I speak unless you lived it. Nothing else compares.

Back with tea and a huge sigh.....how to begin......
well I am here in a new home, my new home I can say as I co-own this place with John.....John ! people! how can I even begin to express how a lethargic sloth of 15 years, stepped up and out once I left his house? Made miracles happen a year later? He didn't even know he had it in him.
When we parted I thought I'd never see him again and he thought the same. It was an amicable parting since I had to leave due to the planes noise driving me insane all day every day.
He thought he'd just go into his usual ways, being alone and be fine. I thought I'd go into a new venture with others to do house buying/flipping and have a creative life and career. Both of us were more than totally, even dimensionally off the mark. Goes to show what you focus on does not materialize, but that other things your mind and brain could NEVER conjure can come to slap you upside the head so hard, your entire sense of what is real and what is not is fully on the table with equal measure.
Turns out John was human after all and the other I thought was, wasn't. We both had our worlds flipped upside down for different reasons, and then both realizing we work better together.....at least as domestic mates we do. There is so much to tell about this story that it has become a book, a literal book. My friends throughout the years have always told me I need to write a book, albeit about different things, so what to write? when I hate writing??.....well, this last experience has made me want to write. I actually want to write the book about all this and I even have a title already.

I have taken long before writing this post because I didn't want to speak too soon.....you know, murphy and all his gang......so I kept quiet. But at this point, should I die now, I could now say I finally know what it feels like when things go right....when things work out, when they go smoothly, as they should without hitches, glitches, interference, etc etc.
I know what it feels like now to take a safe deep breath, never had before, ever. I know what it feels like to own something and have a blank canvas to play with, to get creative with and to have at least one person who enjoys my creativity as his own quality of life. I know what it feels like now, to have quiet, and peace, and I mean quiet that is all the time like I like it, not sporadic or broken up with sounds of people or their machines, but all day every day quiet, the predictable kind.... like......wow......its still quiet. I check about a dozen times every day, looking out the windows front and back to see if it is real, if I am still here in the middle of 5 acres of green grass surrounded by dozens and dozens of fully mature trees, and woods and the deer who live in them, and yes, I am still in the middle of this healing green and it is still quiet, after 2 months. I've never experienced such a thing. Quiet and silence and peace were literally moments in my previous 59 years, and they were too precious and too few. Now, the quiet is here all the time, the main presence and foundation of this place, along with the green beautiful.

The House:
Once John said there was a store opening in Gainesville, I told him to take it, he began the process and he pounded on that like a bull. This fragile, negligent, lethargic, workhorse, turned into the Taurus bull of his nature and got things done. What!?
I was not able to do anything. He had alot to do on his own and I did not for one second believe he would do it all, I mean this is the guy who breaks down in frustration with red lights in traffic, who will put off mowing a small lawn until he gets a city notification. In the 15 years of living with him, it took countless directives to get him to mow his tiny lawn.
What he had to do now was titan-ish for even the most efficient person. He had to secure his job first, get his truck in driving condition which was delayed by 2 weeks!, put his own house on the market for sale, pack and store his things somehow, search and find a house in Gainesville, come to Tennessee to help me finish packing my things and store them, both of us drive to Gainesville in time to close on some house neither of us had time to search for, move us in, then start his new job.....ALL IN 3 WEEKS TIME. Hellooooo?? can anyone conceive of that amount of work? especially for someone like John!!!!!!!!! To top this all off, he had to accomplish all of this while still working full time. I went into despondency because I knew he would never get it done and my chances of getting out of TN and into my own safe and clean space was nil.
But the Taurus Bull and something else came to life. (I get chills). John himself said something took over him and he did everything he could methodically and did not stop. He encountered delay after delay, no help from anyone, his car in the shop for 2 weeks, and endless sabotage every step and yet he did what even would shame heroes to accomplish. Something very intense and strong took him through this, knew the importance of this for saving my life and his own......and it was all done. I am still IN AWE.

What happened was, once he said he would apply for the Gainesville position, and once he said he got it, then the next thing is finding a place to live right? Do we stay in a hotel first so we have time to search? Does he do this alone and then find one and then come get me in TN? If so then it gets expensive for hotel and he knows no one else he could bunk with for that time. How to do this?? I got online to get an idea of houses. I didn't know what to do, how one goes about such things as finding a house. I've always rented or lived with someone else....how do people find houses? I've heard nightmare stories about how long it takes and how many houses one sees to find the right one, location wise, size wise, price wise, etc etc......one does not simply choose a house from a picture and land there.
I got online feeling lame, looking at locations near his job knowing it had to be close because he hates the commute and I wanted him to be free of that one thing that torments him, was the drive to work and back.....so I looked and saw pictures. I found something that was cheaper than what he had his house on the market for and sent him the link to see. He said it was a nice size but was not interested. I looked further and found nothing that had requirements that I needed which were more than his. I needed to be away from traffic and noise, from men and machines. I wanted space to plant gardens and trees. He couldn't care less he's never home. The house had to have at least 3 bedrooms, one for each of us and a quest room, and had to be move in condition. No fixer uppers like his last. He wanted a 2nd bathroom and a window over the kitchen sink. The location, price, etc. We each had a wish list we didn't even tell each other about, I'll get to that later. ( I realize I didn't get into this, but if any are interested I will post another one about this fun bit). But the basics were proximity to job, away from street and traffic and people, space inside and 3 bedrooms.

I got online again, searching neighborhoods driving time to his job etc, and found a house that wasn't there before, similar to the first but this one was cheaper and had blue shudders on the windows and I sent it to John. He wasn't impressed. I gave him the name and number of the broker and asked him to at least speak with her and possibly line up other homes to see, make a connection there and start the process, please! They do that don't they? I listed the pros of the house to try to find out why he was resistant, to no avail. He wasn't impressed at all with that house. Upon deeper questioning which always pushes his annoyed button he had a "thing" against modular homes. I said what's the problem when most homes out here are modular? We both need to make an immediate departure, we don't have time. This prolonged things. Whenever we spoke which was about once a week, ( I know, but he's not one to have conversation, though he tolerates mine more now).....I tried to find out what he wanted from a home and what he was doing to find one? Nothing. He looked online once, on his terrible laptop which basically was 10 years old and froze every 30 seconds, and found one house with 2 pictures total, both of the outside and the house was not only right next to houses on all sides, but the street was 10 feet away. NOT. So he didn't know how to go about this either.

What he finally decided, without telling me was to do a quick sale on his house, and finally called that broker in Gainesville to at least get ideas, and possibly see that one house with the blue shudders and take it from there. I was so helpless! I couldn't do what I usually do to help him, he was overwhelmed with so much to do and had never organized himself before. I went into despair.
We had 2 weeks now.
What I didn't know was that he had called that broker and put a deposit on that house. Without seeing it, he just wanted a location to land and he went and did it. I was floored? flabbergasted? shocked? appalled? impressed? On one hand I didn't care where we landed as long as I was out of that house I was in and in another of my own, and on the other I didn't want to experience any more things going wrong, or not working or anything that needed fixing etc. I was far too sick and weak and traumatized from my past year and years before that, and my body systems were failing. I needed a safe haven. He, needed to just make sure he got to work on s specific day otherwise they'd fire him if he failed to show up. Well how does he do all of this while still working full time ??!?!?!?!? I found out the name of his supervisor at work and explained that he cannot be working right now, he has a transfer to work on, a house to sell, and things to pack, a house to buy and he has to fly to TN to pack and move another household, then get to Gainesville, close on a house we havn't got yet......and HE CANNOT BE WORKING RIGHT NOW, WHY ISN'T HIS APPLICATION FOR VACATION NOT APPROVED !!!! I also had this conversation with John as calmly as I could to speak with his bosses to explain all this as he is never one to speak up and out, and the next day he called me to tell me his last work day was Sunday, 3 days away and now he has an extension of another week or so to make all this happen.

So......we moved into a house in a city we'd never been to, and which was only the 2nd picture I saw online that was worth considering. He put a deposit on it, without seeing it and before it was inspected.........what could go wrong? !!

Actually in this case NOTHING. All went smoothly, and 2 months later as it turns out, what seemed folly based on lack of experience, lack of time, lack of organization, desperation and jumping without looking, worked out, because this house is revealing its charms slowly, and how unbelievably perfect some things are.

I'm getting too much into this one aspect, but I wanted to give you an idea of the stress on top of trauma for me this has been, and for him stress.

However now I will show pictures of the house. These are from the pics online.
We called it the house with the blue shudders. I'm not crazy about this blue, but others are, but I will paint the shudders a nice turquoise blue when things cool down.

My favorite part of this house was that the kitchen was already white and the utility room which I've never had is inside the house as our last were outside on back porch. But there is so much space here. Our last house had only one narrow 7" drawer in kitchen. I was very clever in keeping things organized and neat. Here we have lots of space. I even want an island in the middle as it seems so bare. :D:D:D

This is the back of the house. That carport which I thought such an ugly structure though useful to keep my car under, is turning out to be my favorite hangout. You'll see why. I don't understand though why they didn't put shudders on the back and have such ugly stairs.....we'll have to fix that.

All is not done, but is livable and very cozy now.
The rains and thunderstorms.....well they're taking getting used to because I've never seen so many storms like this, daily, not even in South Florida all these past years.....its a bit scary, but then everything makes me jumpy. The storms batter the windows directly, never experienced that kind of noise and only panes of glass separating me from that violent storm? scary indeed! John needs to put up awnings on the windows and especially the sliding doors, the sun is brutal, not very good to sit out there for long. And I have developed sensitivity (cause I don't have enough) and experience real heat exhaustion, learned the hard way.

So now with my things in, I have some pictures. This is before we planted Italian Cypress, topiary and urns with flowers....... 

....and after........

This is all the landscaping I want to do for this year, I want to see how things go.

On the side of the house I planted Sky Pencil Holly, they're small but will grow. Also the yellow Thryalis which I love because they are fragrant and can take lots of sun and heat.

 I had two heavy cement urns I planted with palm to mark the halfway point of the driveway. It is an elegant hello.
 


 Inside......

Such a nice corner to do laundry and this has a closet to the left which we love having. We have closets here, did I mention that? Some walk ins! The previous house had only one, aside from tiny bedroom ones.

 I don't like seeing store containers, labels etc, so I remove everything and put them in glass containers with disolvable labels. So much cleaner and tranquil.

My room.

 View from window......

 Guest room.

Johns' room, god bless him....this will get the work it needs very shortly.

My bathroom with a Roman Tub.....I need baths as it turns out. Seems the salts and minerals make me feel renewed like nothing else does. It also removes 90% - 100% of my pains and helps me to sleep, so I love taking them. I will have to get this working soon. Needs lots of water, but idiot genius' installed a kitchen faucet and so it trickles and one cannot fill a tub this way. We have to fill a 5 gallon bucket from the other bathroom on the other side of the house and trek it to this tub when I need to take a bath. We're working on it....when john "gets around" to changing the faucet to a high volume one, it may work as it should. Plumber was here said its a job he wouldn't like. sigh.
But the light is so bright in all the rooms, and I can have plants inside the house now, not just outside.
This is how the bathroom was.........

The door to the closet inside the bathroom....I hung a crochet curtain panel I love.....

Needs organizing but I'm working on it.

Well, thats the house and how we live now.....all in the middle of 5 acres of grass and trees which is especially beautiful.

We do however have to mow those lawns and these people out here in country have some serious equipment. John had to buy a rider mower, but it turns out he likes it :D:D:......a new toy, he rides around. Even I have to do some because no way he can do it all himself. Takes two days if we really put our minds to it, but so far we haven't been able to. We either run out of gas, its too hot, or it rains, or we're too tired......its alot of grass. If we stay here, I will have to see about planting more trees.....which we started......I planted two Weeping Willows which need around 50 feet of space which we have, and I adore how they blow in the wind. We also planted a Leyland Cypress. They have yet to fill out....will take years, but are supposed to be among the fast growing trees.
I also planted Arborvitae by each post by the carport which is my new hangout.....they should fill out and look beautiful.....My new favorite in the plant kingdoms are the evergreens.....love them!!

And this is where I play the most, under the carport. We got two potting benches since we had to leave the one we built together at the other house, sadly, I loved it. But moving on....I have these two, where I can keep my things and they are covered mostly. See the third Italian Cypress here? the perfect spot for it on the backside of the house right next to the stairs and I can see it and talk to it every time I come out.....they do give good company you know,,,,they are just a bit stoic.

Bare stairs, with no place to sit in shade, very hot and no gardens.......

We planted our beloved herbs close to the house, but soon realized they were frying and burning in the relentless all day sun with no shade....so we had to add ugly shadecloth, now they are staying green. See Mr. Cypress? I love him there......

This carport has turned out to be very useful! I am planting a Wisteria at the corner, to grow over it.....waiting on john's help to create supports for it though.

 This is the all day shade part. I planted boxes of mixed salad greens that have sprouted beautifully. Thats another thing going right....seeds are sprouting and growing. Must be the well water!

And the very small aborvitae at both ends. Can't wait till they grow and fill out for more evergreen beauty.

And I know there were more details than some cared for, but some of my friends asked for those so there they are. Saves me repeating the story also......which hasn't really been told, is a book forthcoming, but how I am, where I'm living, and how its going is here. Things are finally going right....and thats an entirely new sensation for me. I keep expecting something to glitch, but not yet....quite the opposite....when we work on something it gets fixed. When we're looking for something in the stores like the Cypress, we find them, when we speak of something, it shows up.....its "wow" all the time now.

I guess because.........

"The Hidden Forces Of Life" by The Mother and Sri Aurobindo

*As always, what is written here is meant to be shared. Blessings. Serena, Lady of the Woods http://serenaladyofthewoods.blogspot.com/

Hello People.....especially empaths, sensitives and those with Soul Light......

I am on a mission now....or rather again.......to reveal what has up to now wished to remain hidden. Some of these beings are aware of who and what they are and some of them are not aware of who and what they are and what they do.
These beings will even say themselves that they are of alien stock. I did not believe. I do NOW.
Once the shell shock wears off and I feel clarity, I am going to get to this like a pitbull with a bone.

*Note: Empaths, Sensitives, Ensouled Ones will be the most resistant to this information. Please do not resist. Knowledge of this will protect you, your soul and keep your life and soul YOUR OWN.

But I am here to make it clear.....these creatures are way beyond a mere psychological classification of having Personality Disorders. They are in fact the alien within, a result of hybridization, the result of "Genesis 6:2 "the sons of God saw that the daughters of mankind were beautiful, and they took any they chose as wives for themselves", or anything else spoken of as the historical events of the course of human evolution regarding the interspecies unions, or "merging your kind with our kind". The facts are that humans have been created, experimented with, mutated, transformed, controlled, stunted, and it continues. The facts are that in our times today, it is pandemic, it has increased. 
Please note the insanity around you. It is not human evolution, it is foreign devolution. And their purpose is to destroy the Light within those who carry that Light. Make no mistake.

I am here to reveal what has wished to remain hidden, because we will never release our selves unless we see what is truly happening in the real world, not in our belief systems conveniently given to us by those hidden hands, nor in the incessant brainwashing of the greater masses. Wake up. 
I have been messed with badly. They thought and sought to "take me Out" in uncountable ways throughout my life, which I thought was normal for everyone. It was not. 
Many friends questioned my choice, but I had "faith" in the goodness demonstrated.
I went from the fire into the frying pan. I got worse in my health. Then....WHAM.
It was intended to finish me off.
It did not.
I will not succumb to the darkness that destroys nor to false love and false light that is quick to rabid rage when you do not believe the "show".
I will grow in my Light.
The more I am messed with, the more I will grow.


I HAVE SPOKEN.


Beloved Ensouled ones, do not be fooled. Wake up. Drop beliefs and discard their brainwashing. SEE what is happening on Earth, around you and in your own life for what it is and recognize the attacks for what they are....not mere misfortune, not bad luck, not just "shit happens" but see it for the orchestrations that they truly are. If you are ensouled, you have been targeted and will be seen, and any attempts you have to assist your Self or others, will result in vengeance.
INVALUABLE information below, excerpts from "The Hidden Forces Of Life" by The Mother and Sri Aurobindo. For those who seek to understand the quagmire they are entangled in, in this life, and for those who wish to maintain their Light.

To be Free is to Know Truth.



The Hidden Forces of Life ~ Sri Aurobindo & The Mother

“Men are being constantly invaded by the hostiles (occult forces) and there are great numbers of men who are partly or entirely under their influence. Some are possessed by them, others (a few) are incarnations of hostile beings. At the present moment they are very active all over the earth. Of course in the outside world there is no consciousness, such as is developed in yoga, by which they can either become aware of or consciously repel the attacks – the struggle in them between the psychic (soul) and the hostile force goes on mostly behind the veil or so far as it is on the surface is not understood by the mind.

The apparent freedom and self-assertion of our personal being to which we are so profoundly attached, conceal a most pitiable subjection to a thousand suggestions, impulsions, forces which we have made extraneous to your little person. Our ego, boasting of freedom, is at every moment the slave, toy and puppet of countless beings, powers, forces, influences in universal Nature. All life is the play of universal forces. The individual gives a personal form to these universal forces.

But he can choose whether he shall respond or not to the action of a particular force. Only most people do not really choose – they indulge the play of the forces. Your illnesses, depressions, etc. are the repeated play of such forces. It is only when one can make oneself free of them that one can be the true person and have a true life – but one can be free only by living in the Divine.”

“The first attempt of the possessing entity is to separate the person from his psychic [soul], and it is that that creates the struggle. All depends on the extent and persistence of the possession – how much of the being it occupies and whether it is constant or not.

Hostile forces attack every sadhak; some are conscious of it, others are not. Their object is either to influence the person or to use him or to spoil his sadhana (spiritual practice) or the work or any other motive of the kind. Their object is not to test, but their attack may be used by the guiding power as a test.

It is one thing to see things and quite another to let them enter into you. One has to experience many things, to see and observe, to bring them into the field of the consciousness and know what they are. But there is no reason why you should allow them to enter into you and possess you. It is only the Divine or what comes from the Divine that can be admitted to enter you.

To say that all light is good is as if you said that all water is good – or even that all clear or transparent water is good: it would not be true. One must see what is the nature of the light or where it comes from or what is in it, before one can say that it is the true Light. False lights exist and misleading lustres, lower lights too that belong to the being’s inferior reaches. One must therefore be on one’s guard and distinguish; the true discrimination has to come by growth of the psychic feeling and a purified mind and experience.

Evil forces can always attack in moments of unconsciousness or half-consciousness or through the subconscient or external physical – so long as all is not supramentally transformed. The hostile forces do not need a cause for attacking – they attack whenever and whoever they can. What one has to see is that nothing responds or admits them.

The hostile forces have a certain self-chosen function: it is to test the condition of the individual, of the work, of the earth itself and their readiness for the spiritual descent and fulfillment. At every step of the journey, they are there attacking furiously, criticizing, suggesting, imposing despondency or inciting to revolt, raising unbelief, amassing difficulties. No doubt, they put a very exaggerated interpretation on the rights given them by their function, making mountains even out of what seems to us a mole-hill.

A little trifling false step or mistake and they appear on the road and clap a whole Himalaya as a barrier across it. But this opposition has been permitted from of old not merely as a test or ordeal, but as a compulsion on us to seek a greater strength, a more perfect self-knowledge, an intenser purity and force of aspiration, a faith that nothing can crush, a more powerful descent of the Divine Grace.

Whatever point the adverse forces choose for attack, however small it may seem to the external human mind, becomes a crucial point and to yield it up may be to yield to them one of the keys of the fortress. Even if it is a small postern door, it is enough for them if they can enter.

Nothing is really small and unimportant in the Great Path. Especially, when the struggle has come down to the physical level, these distinctions cease to have any value; for there “small” things have a not easily calculable index value and are of great importance. On that level to lose a small post may be to make certain the loss of the big battle.

All have had to pass through the ordeal and test through which you are passing. We would have avoided it for you if it had been possible, but since it has come we look to you to persist and conquer. Patience, quiet endurance, calm resolution to go through to the end and triumph, these are the qualities now required of you – the less spectacular but more substantial of the warrior virtues.

Also, perspicacity and vigilance. Do not shut your eyes to the difficulty in you or turn away from it, but also let it not discourage you. Victory is certain if we persevere, and what price of difficulty and endeavour can be too great for such a conquest?

These attacks very ordinarily become violent when the progress is becoming rapid and on the way to be definite – especially if they find they cannot carry out an effective aggression into the inner being, they try to shake by outside assaults. One must take it as a trial of strength, a call for gathering all one’s capacities of calm and openness to the Light and Power, so as to make oneself an instrument for the victory of the Divine over the undivine, of the Light over the darkness in the world-tangle. It is in this spirit that you must face these difficulties till the higher things are so confirmed in you that these forces can attack no longer.

There are two things that make it impossible for them [the hostile forces] to succeed even temporarily in any attack on the mind or the vital – first, an entire love, devotion and confidence that nothing can shake [embodied non-reactive zero-point consciousness], secondly, a calm and equality in the vital as well as in the mind which has become the fundamental character of the inner nature. Suggestions then may still come, things go wrong outside, but the being remains invulnerable. Either of these two things is sufficient in itself – and in proportion as they grow, even the existence of the hostile forces becomes less and less of a phenomenon of the inner life – though they may still be there in the outer atmosphere.”

Q: “There are some human beings who are like vampires. What are they and why are they like that?”

They are not human; there is only a human form or appearance. They are incarnations of beings from the world that is just next to the physical, beings who live on the plane which we call the vital world. It is a world of all the desires and impulses and passions and of movements of violence and greed and cunning and every kind of ignorance; but all the dynamisms too are there, all the life-energies and all the powers. The beings of this world have by their nature a strange grip over the material world and can exercise upon it a sinister influence.

Some of them are formed out of the remains of the human being that persist after death in the vital atmosphere near to the earth-plane. His desires and hungers still float there and remain in form even after the dissolution of the body; often they are moved to go on manifesting and satisfying themselves and the birth of these creatures of the vital world is the consequence. But these are minor beings and, if they can be very troublesome, it is yet not impossible to deal with them.

There are others, far more dangerous, who have never been in human form; never were they born into a human body upon earth, for most often they refuse to accept this way of birth because it is slavery to matter and they prefer to remain in their own world, powerful and mischievous, and to control earthly beings from there. For, if they do not want to be born on earth, they do want to be in contact with the physical nature, but without being bound by it.

Their method is to try first to cast their influence upon a man; then they enter slowly into his atmosphere and in the end may get complete possession of him, driving out entirely the real human soul and personality. These creatures, when in possession of an earthly body, may have the human appearance but they have not a human nature. Their habit is to draw upon the life-force of human beings; they attack and capture vital power wherever they can and feed upon it. If they come into your atmosphere, you suddenly feel depressed and exhausted; if you are near them for some time you fall sick; if you live with one of them, it may kill you.

Q:”But how is one to get such creatures out of one’s environment when they are once there?”

The vital power incarnated in these beings is of a very material kind and it is effective only within a short distance. Ordinarily, if you do not live in the same house or if you are not in the same company with them, you do not come within their influence. But if you open some channel of connection or communication, through letters, (note: email, facebook etc, in our day) for example, then you make possible an interchange of forces and are liable to be influenced by them even from a far distance.

The wisest way with these beings is to cut off all connection and have nothing to do with them – unless indeed you have great occult knowledge and power and have learned how to cover and protect yourself – but even then it is always a dangerous thing to move about with them. To hope to transform them, as some people do, is a vain illusion; for they do not want to be transformed. They have no intention of allowing any transformation and all effort in that direction is useless.

These beings, when in the human body, are not often conscious of what they really are. Sometimes they have a vague feeling that they are not quite human in the ordinary way. But still there are cases where they are conscious and very conscious; not only do they know that they do not belong to humanity but they know what they are, act in that knowledge and deliberately pursue their ends. The beings of the vital world are powerful by their very nature; when to their power they add knowledge, they become doubly dangerous.

There is nothing to be done with these creatures; you should avoid having any dealings with them unless you have the power to crush and destroy them. If you are forced into contact with them, beware of the spell they can cast. These vital beings, when they manifest on the physical plane, have always a great hypnotic power; for the centre of their consciousness is in the vital world and not in the material and they are not veiled and dwarfed by the material consciousness as human beings are."